PROLOGUE By Alberto
Ramponelli
The good reader reads for the most plausible, ancient and justified reason: to enjoy what he reads, Jaime Rest once said. Whoever
indulges in this enjoyment is usually a sensitive and intelligent reader at the same time. A demanding reader, without a doubt, who when opening
a book of stories harbors
the intimate desire
to find, first,
stories that deserve
to be told; and second, constructed in the way that best suits said stories. The fiction writer must, therefore,
respond to this double requirement. If you want to aspire
to intelligent and sensitive readers, of course.
This set of stories
by Ricardo Curci reveals this aspiration.
They
combine good narrative tradition and a personal voice, with their own accents.
The successive stories introduce us to a strange world, inhabited by singular characters whose purposes frequently besiege excess, moving in a dense, almost always hallucinatory atmosphere. I said "a world", I said "an atmosphere", because although the stories are several, they actually constitute a saga, anticipated from the title of the volume. The environments are reiterated, the characters reappear, although with the inevitable modifications that the passage of time entails. What is not modified, what endures in the change and gives unity to the whole, is that outstanding feature of abnormality that the central, leading characters denote. This abnormality is manifested through delusional projects, in some cases sordid or sinister, carried out against all sanity, all logic, all morality, even facing the risk of losing one's own life or sacrificing that of an innocent person in the desire to consummate them. . From this perspective, we find ourselves faced with a surprising collection of behaviors where the excessive attempt to equate the human will with some supernatural power, whether of divine or diabolical origin, seems to underlie. An attempt, of course, condemned to fail again and again, with dire and irreparable consequences, which paradoxically reveal the smallness of man, the ridiculousness of his excess. This component makes a certain tragic wind run through the cracks and twists and turns of this world built with a solvent hand from each of the stories that capture it.
Let's look at some of those
delirious projects: Walter,
an architect, wants
to build a house
like
a cathedral, and he tells his wife: "I am a god, Griselda, I am the god of this neighborhood."
Gustavo Valverde, in a rudimentary laboratory next to a river,
crosses water animals looking for a superior
being. Even as a boy, he had a reputation as a witch
in his town. The grocer
Costa tries to preserve the ghost of his dead son. The Benítez twins exchange identities
to fulfill a sinister purpose. Valverde himself, who became a pharmacist, collects
fetuses in jars of formaldehyde and aims to stop the effects of death.
In other cases, the characters' purposes
are reduced to less excessive
but no less sordid or disturbing attempts: several friends
hatch a cunning plan to humiliate a woman who is
elusive to them. An old politician, decadent
and shady, operates
machinations and deceptions to maintain his position. Two twin brothers
settle the unhealthy competition that
confronts them from the same mother's womb through the son of one of them.
There are stories, furthermore, where abnormality is transferred to the relationships established by certain characters
with objects or animals, relationships marked by the trace of
the sinister or diabolical.
I think this quick and partial overview is enough to highlight the imaginative flight put into play by the author. With respect to the way of narrating, Curci also deploys
various resources on this level. For example,
it alternates between an external narrator, in the third person, with internal voices coming from protagonists or witnesses, both singular and plural (in this case, the
"we" articulates an anonymous and group voice).
This variety of narrative points
of view enriches with nuances but does not break the climate of unity that binds these stories.
According to Borges, the prologue borders,
in the sad majority of cases, on after-dinner
oratory and is a subaltern
form of the toast. I am going to dare to contradict the great 6 teacher, I would like in this prologue to toast the success of the preceding
book; I think it meets the essential conditions to deserve it. When I say success,
I mean finding that sensitive and intelligent reader who knows how to appreciate it. If this happens, the old passion,
always renewed
and always the same, of telling stories
for the joy of those
who tell and those
who listen or read will be satisfied.
"Why, I wonder, why, if we have nothing more than this precarious life, does a group of strangers appear to have occupied it more than
ourselves?"
Eduardo Mallea
THE CONSTRUCTION
Walter told his wife to come closer, and extended his hand to her while
his eyes remained fixed on a distant
and vague point. Griselda looked everywhere looking
for the object that attracted her, something very high judging
by her gaze, absorbed, fixed on the sky.
She climbed
over the fence
carefully; the pregnancy caused sudden nausea.
Walter took her shoulders and caressed the back of her red hair. The cold of that autumn
had already settled definitively at six in the afternoon, and the light was decreasing.
"Look, look over there!" He said suddenly, pointing up, behind the low houses, the three- story buildings and the leafy trees. The breeze moved the branches
and the leaves flew to that
land. The huge,
deserted lot, a desolate wasteland next to Costa's
warehouse.
"What do you see?" she asked.
-The Cathedral. Get on your tiptoes.
Then Griselda leaned on her husband's shoulders and he lifted her by the waist.
-What a view, by God! -He said smiling ecstatically, with a joy that she had rarely seen. - Isn't it beautiful? The triumph of architecture, the perfect fusion
of art and technique.
She hit his chest
gently, sharp, innocent
taps that she always gave him when he didn't want to let her go.
-Put me down, I'm dizzy. Will the workers come tomorrow?
Walter was looking forward to them, he couldn't waste any more time. The construction of the house was going to take at least six months. They talked about the plans that were still unfinished, about how many rooms they were going to have, what color she mentioned for the walls, what trees they would plant in the garden. Sometimes Griselda would remain silent, overwhelmed or overwhelmed by her husband's drive and knowledge.
They emerged
from the terrain
covered with thick
grass, clover, and wild, neglected bushes. It was night
and there was only one house on the entire
block, the "New Warehouse" store, with its lantern illuminating the corner, swaying in the night breeze.
They went to bed when they got to the apartment, but Walter didn't
sleep. The ideas came without pause, his mind was
not able to stop. Something or someone sent him those images, those plans that he had to draw.
That's why he got up every night
to sit in front of the
board and make, under a weak lamp, those indecipherable, chaotic sketches that had often amazed him when he saw them with the exquisite cruelty
of the morning light.
That night he reviewed the plans, comparing the different sketches made months before, and saw that the measurements and proportions did not match.
It was necessary to use the
universal pattern proposed by Le Corbusier a long time ago.
It was six o'clock in the morning. He opened the curtains thinking about the truck that at
that moment had to leave the materials yard.
"Griselda, get up!" He shouted from the bathroom. The sound of water, the toothbrush, and
the creaking of the door woke her up.
"Make me a coffee,
I have a thousand things
to prepare before
I leave." After
buttoning up his shirt and pants, he rolled up the plans. He put on the loafers
hidden under the bed and went to the kitchen.
Griselda served
the cups with half-closed eyes and an exasperating slowness.
"The solar plexus, my love, the solar plexus!" He said while drinking his coffee with milk. Then he grabbed his things in a hurry and left the house with an expression of euphoria, like a new Archimedes on the threshold of the great revelation.
"But what is that, dear?" She asked him from the door, while she watched him get into the
car.
-Half the height of a man with his arms outstretched.-And he stood in the morning
sun stretching his arms to the sky, the helmet on his head, the glasses
hiding the color of his eyes,
and a beard that protected from the cold.
"Do you understand me?" he later asked the foreman, trying to explain the new construction regulations.
-Just say, and we'll do it. "You pay for the house," the man answered.
This was how the day began
when they began
to set the foundations in the pit. The
excavator cut off traffic for two hours, demolishing the fence that separated the sidewalk
from
the vacant lot. The neighbors watched all afternoon, and the boys, upon returning from school,
sat down to watch the bulldozer work.
When Griselda
arrived at four,
she saw Walter
driving the machine.
She didn't know,
like so many other things she had discovered lately, that he was capable
of handling her. He
waved an arm at her, smiling excitedly
like a child behind the wheel. He had taken off his helmet; The frizzy hair was messy
and dirty. He stopped and got off the machine.
He had the smell of sweat on his shirt, a smell of dry earth and lime.
-I am a god, Griselda, I am the god of this neighborhood.-The plans fell from their hands.
A week later the pillars and floor were finished. It was a Saturday. Half of the bricklayers had free time. At eleven in the morning people surrounded the perimeter of the construction.
The workers seemed like machine-men creating a new world, which Walter directed from the top. Now that the work was progressing, he could see the cathedral
without straining to look
up.
-How is everything going?-Costa, the grocer, asked him one afternoon, when almost
everyone had already left. He had one hand on his forehead as a visor, and with the other he was
holding his six-year-old son's arm.
-Perfectly!-Walter answered.
-He looks like Hercules, my friend! Hercules on Olympus!-Costa shouted.
Walter rolled
up his shirt sleeves showing
his muscles, and then something
happened.
No one knew how it started,
no one was paying attention. The sun was still shining,
and nothing seemed to herald worry or misfortune. Suddenly, the platform
collapsed. The new floor
and four pillars
collapsed, destroying the basement. A cloud of dust rose along with the
deafening roar and screams. The neighbors scattered in fear. Some dared to enter the field, while others
pushed the children
away to the opposite sidewalk.
A swarm of new people left their homes. The dust continued to rise, until it stopped in a suspended cloud, which
settled again very slowly. Only the sound
of isolated screams
could be heard for a long time. The firefighters arrived,
the police and ambulances began
to surround what until
that moment had been the most peaceful
block in the city.
Among the rubble they heard a call, the voice of the architect speaking to the firefighters as saviors from hell.
"Quickly, I can see them from here, under this column!" Walter said with a weak moan.
Griselda found him in the hospital
with a cast on his leg and a strange
smile. They hugged each other
closely, without saying anything.
Construction had been delayed for almost three months, and he decided to leave the hospital without permission.
-I have survived.-It was the only thing he said to his wife and the doctors.
Upon returning to the construction site, he reviewed the damage and asked for a pencil and paper to make new sketches.
In the morning the bricklayers came, and he went with each one to all the sectors of the work, to explain
in detail the removal of the rubble
and the modifications.
"Hello Costa, here I am again," he said when he saw his neighbor
who opened the business at nine in the morning. The schoolchildren crossed the street, frightened by the memory
of the disaster.
-He's crazy, Walter. Architect or not, he is crazy to continue with this.
-Maybe, but gods must be gods to be gods. Otherwise, nothing could be created.-Costa
then made an obscene gesture, and Walter laughed.
When two more months
had passed and the ground
floor and first
floor were almost finished, Griselda went to see the work, walking
among the piles
of bricks and wood.
-Go up, look at the view from here.
-I'm coming,
Walter.-But she found
it difficult to climb the narrow and fragile staircase, although the scaffolding did not cause
her fear, as if her husband's dizzying
will had infected her.
-We are two creators, my love. You have the child, you are doing it day by day. Me too?
Look at this.
He placed
the plans against
the evening sun, in front
of the still unfinished wall of the first floor open to the street and the roofs of the other blocks. The paper became transparent,
and she could see the shape of the house that her husband had proposed
to build. He followed Walter's hand as it pointed to the sun, its reddish
halo hiding behind
the world, and saw the cathedral.
He listened
to the stones of the church, smelled
the incense, savoring
the aroma in his
throat like a wafer.
"Stretch your arms," she told him, and when she did, he knelt down to measure the height of her body from the floor to below her breasts.
-The exact measurement. The house will be built to the measurement of your body.
Two days later, he was troubled by strange dreams, completely unrelated to his projects. He had seen two small wings, and it occurred
to him that the house needed two symmetrical
rooms on each side. On the first Monday he had the external walls torn down. The foreman initially opposed those changes.
-This is not the cathedral of La Plata, architect.
Then Walter
hit him. He didn't know why he did it. The guy was old and would have easily given in with two kind words.
But he hit him with a punch
that knocked him down, stunned, while Walter looked at him calm and omnipotent. The pillars of the second
floor rose beside him like flowering spikes,
surrounded by car horns and the cold of winter.
No one dared to deny him
anything anymore.
-Throw down the walls. "We are going to build the peripheral wings," he ordered.
From that morning on, the hammering could be heard
every day throughout the neighborhood, until almost ten at night. It echoed through
the streets from that center illuminated by gloomy lamps,
that skeleton that caused panic
every time it moved. And one
night, at nine and fifty minutes, a new roar was heard that brought to mind the previous one,
like a memory recreated in reality. That's why some didn't get scared right away. Then, upon seeing the reddish dust in the night air, the smell of lime and bricks filling the street and the windows of the houses, they went out to curse the architect, creator of that monster that he called
his future home.
At nine forty-eight, Costa's
son had left with his bicycle. A minute later,
he was crossing the vacant lot that always
prevented him from traveling two extra blocks.
The collapse of the
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sides of the house did not take into account the run of the child, the six-year-old son of the grocer on the corner.
The walls fell mercilessly on everything in their path.
A siren
suddenly sounded, but the ambulances arrived late. The neighbors, like shadows
in
pajamas, filled the street with words of punishment and dishonor. The headlights of the fire engine illuminated the area. There
was red and white dust everywhere, clogging
people's mouths and noses. They looked for Walter and the five workers.
Costa appeared
at the door of the business in his boxers,
agitated, holding onto the
frame as if he needed
it to stay upright. His bristly chest
swayed like that of an asthmatic on the verge of life.
"Guille!" He shouted, running down the sidewalk, while looking at the disaster and the house
illuminated by the car headlights.
"Here's another one!" The firefighters warned each other, and every ten or fifteen minutes they rescued a man. But they didn't
find Walter.
-He was on the other
side of the building.-Said those
who believed they had seen him run at the last moment towards that sector for no reason. Then they went to the left wing, the one closest
to the warehouse.
-Guille!-Costa entered the field, the scene of the collapse and the blood of mutilated bodies.
People watched him go from one place to another like crazy.
The rubble was removed
brick by brick throughout the night. The last beams were
removed around six in the morning, when the sun began to rise slowly and shamefully. Griselda waited on the sidewalk,
surrounded by looks of extreme sorrow and resentment.
At half past five they had to take her to the hospital, the baby seemed to have moved forward.
At five minutes past six they found Walter.
His same leg was crushed
as last time, but he was
alive and lucid,
although silent. When he loaded
him into the ambulance he only said:
-The boy, Costa's son...
I saw him pass and I wanted
to warn him, shout at him... They closed the door. Costa
stopped sweating and desperate in front of the ambulance.
They tried to stop him, but he hit the sheet metal of the vehicle with impotent fury. When he opened it he knelt
next to the stretcher.
-Architect! Where did you see my son? -I yelled at him.-Walter answered.-I warned him not to pass, and suddenly, for God's sake, ten seconds
before, I swear, I saw the wings of my dream. The wings of an angel on the
boy's back.
THE CREATURES
Gustavo hides
wherever he can, among the green and thorny bushes,
avoiding the swamps and streams. Flee towards the hut to protect it. He is not sure who reported
him. The old woman
perhaps, or Don Anselmo her neighbor, the one with the farm two kilometers from hers.
But on this night of the full moon, when the crickets chirp as if frightened, you can hear the bubbling
of water that seems to boil from the river bed. That's where everything comes from, he knows
it. And the countryside also knows it, which hears
the noise of its creatures.
-Where was the first animal born, pa? -He asked once five years ago, while with his father they were dredging
the lagoon. It was getting
dark and they stayed working
late. The sun was
hiding behind the poplars and its golden reflections reflected
in the water. With each scoop,
thousands of small beings came to the surface, and Gustavo watched them,
absorbed and intrigued.
-From the water.-The father told him after a while.-That's what those who know say.
Everything was born from water.-And he continued shoveling, with his back defeated and his hands hard.
It was then that he heard
her low, hoarse
cry of suppressed pain. They immediately
looked at each other, and the old man fell on the shore clutching
his injured hand. Gustavo
ran towards him, but he didn't have time to see the other scorpion
that was already
on its own
feet. Very soon he was going to turn as red as his father's hand. However, he didn't dare say
anything to her. The old man's face was torn.
-Look for the knife, it's there. Then you're going to cut me right here, do you understand? - He explained slowly,
sweating, wet from the weak cold waves
that hit him.
There was almost no light, and in the darkness he began to feel his way around the
grass. With his hands in the mud, he separated the piles of uprooted reeds, and entered the water, sweeping
the bottom with his arms. But he couldn't find it.
-Dad, I can't find it! "What do I do?" He said, moaning.
He received no response. His father
was just a shadow that blended into the rising
tide. Everything was an abyss,
bottomless darkness. And Gustavo
stayed there until
morning, clinging to that motionless body like an anchor.
There are screams everywhere, cries that he cannot distinguish if they come from the bush or from his hut.
It must be almost midnight, so he keeps running to close the distance between
him and his creatures.
"This way!" He hears the gendarmes say, and accelerates his steps. His left foot hurts,
the
same one he thought he lost five years before. 14 When they came to look for them, the morning sun had just risen, and he saw the mother and his brothers approaching where he was sitting,
with the old man's body on his legs.
"The foot, Gustavo!" She shouted, looking
at the leg, red and swollen like a shapeless mass. But he didn't feel
anything.
-The scorpion.-He repeated again and again.-The scorpion
escaped, the murderer... He was delirious for seven days, and on the eighth he woke up without fever, although weak. The foot had no traces
of disease, only a dotted
red spot. The doctor could
not explain what had
happened. The neighbors, who knew how people died from that bite, began to fear him.
-That boy is a witch.-Said the old women in the town store.
From then on Gustavo
was no longer afraid. At night he entered the reeds of the delta, sinking up to his neck in the water,
defying snakes or spiders. I saw the bats hanging
from the branches of the willows,
the owls with their eyes open like two green
moons in the middle of the
windy night. Thus,
his primary idea was also born from water: the creation of his own world.
"I
am proof that one can become immune to the elements and poisons," he said
one afternoon from his seat in the classroom, shouting about his immortality. Everyone
laughed at him, and Gustavo ran away crying
towards the river.
Everyone laughed
except Rosa, Gustavo
remembers, while the pain in his foot attacks
him, as it always happens
on nights of effort and humidity. Rosa always believed
him, although she could
never bring herself
to show him her projects. They always went for a walk
to the dock, while the mosquitoes flew over her serene face.
"They don't
do anything to you?" He complained, amidst
the sound of palms being
struck to crush them.
-Animals are my friends,
one day I will show you.-But doing
so was a mistake, think
now. He's finally arriving, almost crashing into the door because of the darkness.
He opens it,
and the screams from inside increase
and stun him.
"Stop it, it's me!" He shouts, and all the animals remain silent. Doesn't turn on the lights. He just closes
it and crouches under the window, waiting.
He steps in the excrement of his creatures and
shouts obscenities.
From the remains of animals, from their fresh
corpses rescued from the water,
he created the first specimens. He looked for containers to put water from the lagoon, and there proliferated
thousands of shapeless parasites that devoured each other to give rise to
stronger creatures.
Their brothers
called them monsters
when they saw them, and their mother only
screamed, hitting the fish tanks with the broom until they were destroyed. Gustavo was eighteen years
old, and looked
like a child crying over his dead pets.
"You're strange, son, very strange!" She reproached him from the kitchen. Gustavo picked up the babies, listening to the noise of the pots intermingled with his mother's cries, similar to the screams of a woman in labor. Suddenly, he had a new idea: he was going to use the old
mountain hut as a laboratory, an ancient creation
kitchen.
The dim glow of the moon allows him to see the tables
used for experiments, the closet, and the old sink.
The creatures move slowly around
him, they sense
something but they are
not scared yet. Their shadows
sneak among other
shadows, projected on the wooden
ceiling. It is too hot.
There was one summer
when he finally
succeeded. At the pharmacy he bought the material that appeared in a catalog.
Then he went to the doctor's office.
-Doctor, can animals interbreed with other breeds?
The doctor looked at him strangely; He remembered having treated him two years before for that scorpion sting.
-There
is no compatibility between the secretions.-He answered.-They would be rejected.
-I think I can avoid that.
The doctor laughed, and continued laughing
as Gustavo left the office with his arms
loaded with books.
He cleaned
the hut and built the necessary furniture. Rosa believed she was doing
it for them.
-Let me see how it's going.
"Not yet," he answered. They were both lying on the grass, looking up at the stormy sky, surrounded by the flight of dragonflies.
-They are beautiful, so perfect.
"They look like ugly bugs to me." And then Gustavo
stopped caressing her, removing his hands from her warm thighs.
For three months, Gustavo
locked himself in the hut. They brought
him food when they
saw light at night, and if not he would
get food for himself. Smellless smoke of various
colors came out of the chimney,
and the townspeople began to avoid
the road that led there.
The nearby farms began
to be looted by night
thieves, who stole
pigs and rabbits.
Isolated shots were heard in the delta, and the wild animals suddenly
fell silent for seven nights
in a row. As if everyone
had disappeared or had agreed
to live in absolute silence.
At the end of October the first warm days arrived. The nights were clear and cloudless.
The morning
on the banks of the river began
to take on a tone exactly opposite
to the previous weeks. A growing
bustle filled the area; The animals seemed to have reproduced
with unusual fecundity. The sound
of the awakening of the beasts opened
the undergrow
spreading between the streams and the clear sky.
On the last Sunday
of the month, Gustavo left the hut, shielding his eyes from the sun, and
stretched after so many restless
nights. After diving
into the lagoon,
he shaved with the
razor and washed his clothes.
When it was dry at the end of the afternoon, he dressed and put
a white flower on his shirt. Then, after entering
the cabin again, he came out with a leash at
the end of which was an animal,
one of the many that remained locked
up.
He began to walk the path that led to the town, walking with that creature. It was neither a dog nor a rabbit.
Not even a close relative
to a weasel or a ferret; He had the shape but not
the
gait, the face but not the fur. He jumped, squealing weakly. The tail served as momentum,
a long, bare rodent tail.
It was strange, something the town had never seen.
Gustavo Valverde walked proudly,
clean and shaved, with those green eyes that often made the old gossips talk.
"The eyes of an owl, that's what they are, and look what a strange creature he has," they said, looking out of the windows and doors, while
he went straight
to his girlfriend's house.
They saw him arrive
down the street,
surrounded by boys who were running around
the animal. The bustle preceded them, and Rosa came out when she saw
them.
-Gustavo, what is this?-And as he extended his hand to caress the beast, he felt the bite. "He bit her, he bit her!" the people shouted. The voice spread through the streets, it took
them as its own until it became street and voice, a single thing with an independent and uncontrollable soul.
Rosa had bled, and Gustavo checked
her hand saying that there was no danger, that he
had been careful to vaccinate them all.
"But how many do you have?" She asked, and they entered,
moving away from the crowd of boys that gathered at her door.
-When you see them you will understand me. I created different beings, free of diseases, immune like me to poisons.
Rosa looked
at him amazed and nervous
because of the wound that was hurting
more and more. Then she kicked the animal and the beast cried.
"No!" Valverde shouted.
He left his girlfriend's house angrily, pushing his way through the people. They followed
him, but he ran. A smell of urine came from the animal's fur, which trembled in fear, clinging to its
clothes with its claws.
He went from one place to another throughout the afternoon, without daring to return to the hut. Then a shot was heard, very close, and the animal jumped from his arms without him being able to stop it.
-Valverde!-A voice called through the foliage.-There
are complaints against you, boy, we just want to see what you
were doing.
Gustavo fled, with the shadow of the night on his heels. With the weight of time stopping him with every meter he advanced.
"Close the door and prevent the invasion," he repeated over and over again. And so,
running, he arrived at the cabin to defend his creatures.
Footsteps, yes, they are footprints and the animals
raise their heads.
The knocks on the
door continue without interruption, with fists and weapons on the wood.
The beasts scream and moan, the blows
fade for a moment, but are renewed,
insistent.
The animals
approach Gustavo, surround
him, run to the door and jump out in anger. The movement of their tails
raises the aroma
of dirt, dust and humidity. Everything is scandal
and crying, desperate screams
from each side of the door. Gustavo
knows that they will take her
down.
-Open, we want to know what you do! And the door collapses. The lanterns are a
particular sun, a small sun ready to reveal the monsters. The animals jump and crouch against the walls. The people surrounding the soldiers scream
in amazement. They have
remained still for a long time, observing, passing the light through the bright eyes of those
beings.
The animals
do not attack, they do not defend
themselves, they only run to meet
Valverde. The flashlights illuminate him and people
see his hunched
back, they see him
kneeling, covered by his creatures.
They protect him, covering him like a shell, glaring at intruders with furious eyes and claws ready. Willing
to do anything to protect
their father from danger.
THE WINDS
Rodrigo Casas arrived in the city when he was sixteen years old. Walking
through the neighborhood, the first thing that caught his brown-eyed gaze was
the old, almost prismatic and lonely warehouse premises. It occupied the corner
with its carefully molded friezes, the tiled eaves, the windows open to each of
the streets, and the enormous door with two leaves of iron and glass. A green
layer of mold rose up the wall from the tiles.
On the threshold there was a
dog with unmistakable signs of mange, and next to it a man in his forties,
sitting with his face in his hands. The fringed curtain swayed in the midday
breeze.
-I'm looking for a room,
sir. Do you know where there is one available? -He asked her.
The other looked at him
before answering. Rodrigo noticed the thick, gray beard, the sparse and frizzy
hair. His abdomen fit the apron. There was a sign on the door, above the dog
curled up and sleeping.
“Help needed,” he said. And
at the top he read: “New warehouse, by Francisco Costa.”
-If you want, I'll give you
a quarter and a job. Where do you come from?
-From Tandil, Mr. Costa.
-Come in and I'll show you
the business.
Rodrigo was going to touch
the dog, but a “no!” The man's hoarseness scared him.
-You better not touch him,
you're just going to feed him. Another thing... -he told her, pointing to the
old construction next to the premises. - ...don't go in there, it's going to
collapse at any moment.
Then the boy looked at that
unfinished house, built up to the first floor and with the pillars of the
second pointing to the sky.
The business inside was
dark. It had two rows of counters arranged in an L shape. Behind them were
shelves full of boxes of cookies, cans of oil, and bags of flour.
-I need someone to replace
me when I go to the wholesaler or do paperwork. Also for replacement. Do you
understand? You're going to be my right hand. Come and take you to your room.
Here is the bathroom, that is my bedroom and this is yours.
The room seemed to have been
inhabited by a child. There was a bed under the window and a closet with old,
moth-eaten clothes. The smell of mothballs and humidity was almost
unbreathable. In one corner, there was a trunk with as many toys as could be
accumulated during an entire childhood. Costa stood by while Rodrigo explored
his new room.
-For tomorrow I'm going to
take these things out. They were my son's, you know? Now I would be your age.-
Then he closed the door, and Rodrigo undressed to rest for a while.
He didn't know how long he
was asleep, but the dog's howling slowly woke him up. It was already dark, and
it must have been almost nine at night. He went out into the hallway, washed
his face in the bathroom and, seeing the open door to Costa's bedroom, decided
to go in. The window looked out onto the neighboring land, where the dog was
howling on top of a mountain of rubble, with its muzzle and blind gaze directed
towards the ruins of the house.
Then he saw Costa entering
that place, even against his own advice, until he stood next to the dog. Man
and dog walked together towards the crumbling walls, entering the darkness, and
everything seemed to sink into silence.
Rodrigo started looking for
something to eat in the kitchen. The refrigerator held two bottles of wine,
some ham and two pieces of meat. He cooked the meat, preparing everything for
when his boss returned. At twelve at night he had fallen asleep, with his arms
resting on the table. Suddenly he felt the dog touch his leg to wake him up,
barely touching him, cautious and submissive, as if he knew his illness and was
afraid of infecting it. Costa arrived later and stroked his head.
-To bed, old man. My dear
child.- Rodrigo was sleepy, and later he could not remember if he had really
heard that phrase or if he had only dreamed it.
The work was not too hard.
The neighbors began to know him, to treat him in such a friendly manner that he
was surprised at first. It was true that he did his job, got up early and was
polite to people. But that kindness almost bordered on melancholy, as if
everyone had known him before.
-People love you.- Costa
told him.- Appreciate good kids. Mine was like that, everyone loved it. He rode
his bicycle everywhere, and the neighbors shouted greetings to him. His mother
died when he was still a baby, and I think that's why they felt sorry for him.
"What happened to his
son?" He asked, while pouring the flour into a jar, and the dust remained
frozen in the air, suspended, also waiting for an answer that did not come.
The dog started howling at
the same time every night. The two looked outside. The nine o'clock light was
poor. Costa, in a hurry, went to the street. Rodrigo decided to follow him. For
a whole month he had seen him do the same thing, and he could no longer resist
his curiosity.
The darkened silhouette and
something Costa's
hunchback entered through the remains of the house's wall, followed by the
animal. The boy went after them as stealthily as possible, however tripping
over the wood and bricks that had been piled up for years. He entered through
the same opening and saw the staircase that led to the first floor, where the
other, crying, spoke to a shadow projected on the wall. A figure of imprecise
shape, which could come from any door, window or remains of that house that had
lost its original shape, or had never had one. The light from the street or the
moon falling on the ruins was unpredictable and capricious. The figure on the
wall did not move. Only Costa and his lips did it, talking non-stop for half an
hour. The dog whined very quietly, as if he didn't want to interrupt his owner.
Rodrigo later learned, by
asking the clients, the old neighbors of the neighborhood who had known the
entire life of its inhabitants, that the animal had been the pet of Costa's
son. They both walked through the streets of the neighborhood under the summer
sun, while the father, still young, beardless and thinner, watched them from
the warehouse door. Until that night when the house collapsed, crushing the
boy, who with his short legs had tried in vain to escape on his bicycle.
One morning, very early,
Rodrigo heard some noises. It was Costa, showering and shaving before the usual
time.
-I need you early today.
Take care of business, I have to receive the bricklayers.
At seven thirty the truck
with the material arrived at the neighboring field. For the next few days,
Rodrigo snuck in every free moment to watch the construction, actually the
completion of the house. He didn't know that Costa owned him.
-He bought the land five
years ago in a judicial auction.- The neighbor across the street told him.
-And why do you want to
finish it? -Asked the boy while he cut the length of ham on a piece of
cellophane and wrapped it with wood paper.
-If you don't know, dear...
- The old woman answered. -Twenty cents, right?- And while she paid him, he
stayed thinking.
For the next few nights, the
vibrancy and noise of the days contrasted strangely with the abrupt silence of
the darkness. They both knew it. Eating slowly, they waited for the time when
the dog howled to go home.
-Do you want to accompany
me?- Costa invited him one night.
They left the kitchen lights
on and the door open. The lonely path hid his steps until the land. The animal
followed them weakly, with an asthmatic moan. They climbed the wooden stairs,
and Costa rested his right arm on the boy's shoulders. On the landing on the
first floor they saw that still, shapeless shadow again. The dog howled louder.
The lime dust and sawdust from the day's work had not fully settled, floating
in the scant light coming in from the street. But the shadow was still silent,
and Costa murmured.
-Listen, do you understand
what he says?
Rodrigo didn't hear
anything, no matter how much he forced his attention. A minute later the shadow
began to spin without stopping. Sometimes fast and sometimes slower.
"He's riding his
bicycle around the house!" Costa shouted, grabbing Rodrigo by his arm,
almost dragging him towards a window.
-Do you see it?- And what
they saw was a shadow spinning across the land. Something or someone spinning
to the rhythm of the wind, which had risen a few minutes before.
-He lives here, and that's
why I built him the house.
Rodrigo believed him, scared
and with his soul sticking out of his throat.
The next morning, he spoke
with Costa.
-I'm afraid, I don't like
this.
-Stay until the house is
finished. A few months. I promise to get you the location for the bakery you
want to set up.
He agreed because he treated
him like a child, and he liked feeling like a baby again or a boy who enjoyed
the world. From that day on they spoke little, and Costa no longer stayed there
except to sleep. Young Casas, as the clients began to call him, replaced his
boss in all of his tasks. He took care of the business and was even able to
offset the losses generated by the construction. However, everyone asked about
Costa, despite seeing him every day in the field, listening to him speak to the
workers in an iron but tired voice.
The work was completed in
five months, and finally the entire neighborhood could see the house rising
with its two floors towards the sky, as if wanting to reach it.
And that's what he told the
neighbors, when the bricklayers left and the wooden fence was already built
around the garden. People, amazed, crossed the street to observe it from the
front: The windows and balconies, the carved wooden finishes, the complex
roofs. They asked him what he was going to do with that house alone.
-For Guille.- He answered.-
So that he can store his bicycle and rest.
The people retreated in slow
silence. Some murmured, and some former neighbor patted him on the back, as if
consoling him. But for Rodrigo there was no space or need for consolation.
Costa's face showed happiness, without that melancholic smile with which she
had met him.
From the door of the
warehouse, from that corner now scorched by the midday sun, wearing gray pants,
no shirt, and the apron that his boss had given him, Rodrigo walked to the
sidewalk. The dog was still lying at the door of the business.
-Beautiful, as much as a
beautiful woman, isn't it?
Costa laughed.
-It's true.- And they stood
looking at the house, the same one that was going to be inhabited by a dead
child.
"They think I'm crazy,
I think," he said later.
They felt that something was
blinding them, intermittently, an intense light that circled in the sky in
broad daylight. They rubbed their eyes, covering their eyes from the sun with
their hands. But that reflection continued to bother them. Suddenly, Costa ran
towards the garden, and seemed to be looking for something everywhere, as if he
expected to see the boy appearing from some corner with his bicycle. And for a
moment Rodrigo also waited for him. At least until he discovered the weather
vane that turned in the breeze, the rusty compass rose built ten years before
in a corner of the second floor, and forgotten since then.
Rodrigo didn't think about
it anymore, he simply did it because the ridiculous figure of Costa, waiting
there desperately, was unbearable. He grabbed one of the many pieces of rubble
scattered on the ground and threw it towards the house. The stone hit the
weather vane, which, being so old, fell docilely into the garden.
The reflection disappeared.
Costa no longer had that shine, that piece of sun spinning in his face, and he
was left looking at the inert pinwheel on the grass.
SUBSTITUTES
When the Benítez twins got into their father's Valiant on their
seventeenth birthday, no one could see which of them sat behind the wheel. They
got up earlier. But instead of walking to school, they entered the garage very
quietly, in the cold darkness of six-thirty that winter morning. They didn't
pick me up like they did every day, but rather they took the car, waited for
the engine to warm up, and left directly for school.
The frost was slowly melting
on the windshield. I'm sure they were freezing inside too, even with their
hand-knitted scarves and expensive coats their parents brought them from
abroad. They smoked, and the smoke mixed with the vapor of their warm breaths
in contact with the unbearable cold of that day. The smell of gasoline
permeated the air until it almost drowned them in their agitated stupor, in
that anxiety they must have felt before the crime.
Then they saw Miss Inés, the
school director, who had made them repeat the same high school course twice.
-She got into it with us,
she has us between her eyebrows.-Jorge had told her parents once. Daniel
claimed that she was an old, resentful spinster who could no longer control
anyone at school, and that was why she took out her anger against them. Many
times, the Benítez parents were on the verge of changing schools, but the boys
had refused. It was a war they wanted to win at all costs.
Two years before, Miss Inés
had received the harshest chalk shooting of her life. Like someone condemned to
death, she stayed in front of the blackboard, with her back to the class, but
we had hurt her, I know. When we got tired, the Benítez twins continued without
stopping until the recess bell rang. The young lady, tall, with a skinny face
and big thighs, with dyed red hair and two pearl earrings, did not cry. She
turned around, looking at us with an expression that mixed anger and sadness.
That face made me remember what the other teachers said, the rumor that was
almost a legend at school. It was said that, when she was young, she had been
deceived by a man. The guy was married and had been lying to her for two years.
I once heard one of her teachers say that he came to pick her up from school a
few times during that time. “He made a horrible noise with the soles of his
shoes, it was impossible not to recognize him,” she said, as if it were the
only important thing about her.
As I was standing at my desk
after the mess we made that day in the classroom, Miss Inés yelled at me.
-Julián Santos, he is reprimanded!
You and the Benítezes go to the Directorate immediately! - Her voice broke, she
sank into an abyss from which she would not emerge until two hours later, in
the office of the person who was then the director.
"Miss Inés," she
told him. "They are rebels, young people are rebels by nature."
Forgive them this time.
We put on innocent faces.
The Benítezes, so alike, my God, as exact as two drops of water, laughed
secretly, and I saw the helplessness of both women to challenge them. “Jorge,”
they were going to say, “Daniel,” they corrected themselves; and faced with the
possible injustice of punishing one because of the other, they abstained.
At a quarter past seven they
saw her get off the bus. She had been walking with difficulty for several
months before. Her hips hurt, she always complained. She sat in her office
almost all the time, and the teachers and students came to her desk as if
before a throne. Because she began to rule from there like a despot. She no
longer went to the classrooms or the playground. A senile secretary gave her
reports of every minute detail that happened at school, and she decided and
ordered. “What did the Benítez's do today?” She asked every morning, and her
face did not seem to calm down until she saw them running in the yard.
Her red hair was now faded
and graying, and her thick glasses obscured her eyes.
"You're going to see
what's going to happen to you, you old piece of shit." Daniel threatened
in a whisper.
-The time has come.-Jorge
said.
And one of them accelerated.
I would like to know which one, but I don't think it matters anymore. They were
both one, they acted as one.
Miss Inés crossed the
street. She surely saw in the light of dawn, with the sun peeking over her side
street and on the cobblestones wet with dew, that car with the lights on and
the engine complaining. But she didn't pay attention to him.
Suddenly, she had the
machine on her. The bumper touched her legs and the trembling of her body
echoed up to the back of her neck. Then she must have felt oblivion as she
looked at the sky, which was spinning. The buildings were spinning around her,
and her head seemed to be crushed against the sheet metal of the big white car.
A smell of blood and mud filled the street.
Maybe at that moment she
remembered the Benítez twins. I'm sure that through the windshield she
discovered her satisfied faces, and that smile that characterized them.
Until he was fourteen, Jorge
was smaller and shorter, shy compared to his brother. At that time both were
abrupt, violent. Sometimes extremely vivid and subtle. They formed a world
apart in the class, surrounded themselves with few friends and caused
destruction everywhere. They fought among themselves, competed, arguing and
fighting each other. However, after repeating those two courses, after the
almost bloody battles with Miss Inés, from which they emerged with an increasingly
greater and more contained anger, one day they began to change.
Jorge grew, his body
increased in robustness, and Daniel adapted to him, reducing his strength and
the leadership he had until then. Their differences disappeared.
Miss Inés survived. She was
admitted to the same clinic where Jorge was taken for his broken leg against
the dashboard of the car. They took Daniel to the police station, but he did
not want to answer which one he was driving.
"It was an accident,
officer, we are not going to accuse each other," the two said when
questioned separately.
The fingerprints on the
steering wheel belonged to both of them, the mud stains on the pedal came from
the shoes of both brothers. There were no traces of sweat on the steering
wheel. The witnesses contradicted each other without being able to confirm
whether one or the other had gotten into the driver's seat. There was also no
blood in the dent in the dashboard.
-For the last time, guys,
who was driving? If the old woman dies, they go straight to the juvenile
reformatory. -The commissioner threatened them, adjusting his cap and sweating.
-You and your shitty lawyers are going to drive me crazy.
Two weeks passed like this.
Jorge was hospitalized two floors below Miss Inés's room. Daniel was released
on bail and a lawyer for his father advised him day and night. In the afternoon
he was going to visit his brother, who had his right leg in a cast.
I went to see them regularly
and found them conversing secretly, with their faces so close that they seemed
to merge into each other. His stubble grew like a whirlwind, destroying all
pious expression. At that moment, more than ever, the twins had locked
themselves in a circle that no one could enter.
"Daniel, here's the
painkiller, dear," the nurse said as she entered the room. I looked at her
confused, because at first I thought she had made a mistake. But they didn't
correct her.
-What joke are they doing to
the mine? -I asked them.
-None. Don't say anything,
but I'm the one who is fractured, not Jorge.-Daniel answered me from the bed.
-Then the one who was
driving...
"It doesn't matter who,
the fracture is here," he answered, touching the cast.
They scared me. Because it
was not simply a foolish or childish revenge that I discovered in his
expression, but the surreptitious suspicion that they were an instrument or a
means for something more.
In the following days, I was
the only one they decided to tell about their visits to Miss Inés' room.
Jorge was the first to go
up to see the teacher.
-Daniel Benítez!-She said,
thinking that it was Jorge who was in bed.- I was wondering how long it would
take you to come see me?
-It was an accident, miss,
we were trying dad's car for the first time. -The boy wanted to justify
himself.
She then tried to calm down.
-It's okay, it's over. Now
that I think about what I was saved from...
They began to talk about the
kids from elementary school and the classmates who were no longer here.
"You were always the
leader, Daniel, and now I see that by not getting hurt you are still the
strongest." While she stroked his hair she began to think, as if she
remembered having seen that face in some other time or place.
The visits were made later
each day. He sometimes went to visit her after dinner, when the nurses' shift
changed.
One night the teacher saw
the one with the cast enter.
"Jorge, for God's sake,
how did you get up?" She shouted.
-I'm Daniel, miss.
-Come on..., enough of the
jokes.
-I'm Daniel, I swear. My
brother pretended to be me for a few days. If only he knew how many times we
fooled them all.
The teacher couldn't believe
him.
-But not to the doctors, the
fracture exists, right?
-Yes, it's true, but I'm Daniel.
- They talked, repeating the same memories. Miss Inés remembered with nostalgia
her beloved time as a young teacher.
"It was a different
time, dear, and I fell in love only once," she told the Benítez who came
in the next night.
-I'm Jorge, miss, Daniel was
playing a joke on you. He paid a nurse to make a cast for him.
-Am I being kidding! Out!
-And he sent the doctors to come, demanding to see the x-rays.
"It's impossible for
the boy to go up with this cast," they told him. "Maybe he's having
nightmares."
Daniel swore that he had not
seen the teacher since the accident, and that he never visited her at night.
The nurses on the ward
confirmed that he had not left the room. The parents decided to watch them and
they took turns staying in the room. But Miss Inés continued to wake up
distressed every morning, saying that the boys were visiting her.
On what was to be her last
morning, she told what one of them had asked her that night. She no longer
dared to call them by her name.
-Do you remember what her
boyfriend's name was?
-My boyfriend? I don't
remember, it's curious. He had long hair and a soft beard, he was left-handed,
I do remember that. Very tall and thin. His face looked so much like you, that
every time I saw you at school I remembered him. - Then she caressed him,
crying. -The day I discovered that he was married I had the idea to go get the
knife from the kitchen and kill him.
The boy left the room, and
the other came. The one who had a cast and was firmly hitting the rungs of the
ladder. The teacher began to shake without knowing why. The footsteps sounded
louder and louder on the mosaic staircase. The clinic was almost dark, and the
other Benítez had turned off the light in the room when leaving. The footsteps
continued to echo and they were already at the threshold. They made a noise
very similar to the soles of the shoes of someone he had known, but who had
been dead for many years before.
-I'm sure, good God, I'm
sure he wasn't breathing...! She - She said out loud, and covered her mouth
fearing that someone had heard her.
The door opened, and
against the light of the hallway a human figure stood out, only a shadow, but
wearing a cast on its right leg and a crutch on the same side. “The Benitez?”
she asked herself.
"Who is it, Jorge,
Daniel?" She said in a low voice, trying to see in the darkness. However,
that shadow had a great size.
The shadow remained still
for a moment that must have seemed infinite to Miss Inés, because doubt was
easily turning into fear.
-No, it's not them... but
yes, I see the plaster, and they are capable of anything to deceive me.
For a second she felt calm,
relieved, until she saw him approach, dragging her leg. The sound of footsteps
could be heard thunderous between the walls of the room, and a metallic
reflection illuminated Miss Inés's face, and she then clearly saw the long,
sharp weapon in the visitor's hand.
The teacher screamed with a
scream of unbearable fear, and this time her crying was heard everywhere. The
Benítez mother woke up with a start, and upon seeing that her son was sleeping,
she ran to the hallway. The doctors on duty went up quickly. She followed them
and stopped at the door of the room. The old woman screamed, jumping
convulsively on the bed. Two men were holding her down to inject her with a
sedative. As she calmed down, she managed to tell what she saw that night.
Suddenly, she seemed to have a heart attack. The Benítez mother told us the
things that Miss Inés had said before she died.
-It was a heart attack, it
seems to me, because they brought one of her devices and gave her an electric shock.
But it was useless. Poor girl collapsed on the bed with a panicked face. She
had one arm around her neck and the other extended forward with her fist
clenched, as if she wanted to protect herself from something invisible.
With the natural death of
the teacher, the charges against the twins were dismissed, but we never found
out who drove that white car.
We only have the words of
Miss Inés screaming at the shadow in the middle of the night. To that figure
who, according to her, was wearing a cast and a crutch, and in her left hand a
weapon very similar to a scythe.
THE INVASION
Rosa and Gustavo
were nervous, the train guard
had already passed
by three times looking at them threateningly. From the canvas
bag hidden under
the seat came a high- pitched, shrill scream.
"Not long away," Gustavo
murmured as the train left the last station before La Plata. A
hand-knitted hat covered
his ears, as if the morning cold of the countryside survived
on his body. He was shivering, and the movement
of the bag passed to his legs to shake him even more.
With her arms crossed,
Rosa adjusted her coat over her chest. But his right hand, always
bandaged since an animal had bitten it months before,
was beginning to hurt with the cold, and
he no longer knew how to protect
it. A constant sore increased over time, along
with the
transparent suppuration that drove her crazy
with its penetrating smell.
-Your remedies
no longer work for me. Let's go to the city to see if they can cure me. She
asked him many times.
Then he had to resign himself
to that truth, that he couldn't or didn't know how to stop
the ulcer on Rosa's hand.
He, who studied
so much and healed his neighbors in the town,
had to accept it, and they decided to move to the city.
He had in his pocket
the rental contract
to open a pharmacy in the suburbs.
From afar they saw the hangars
of the central station, a huge iron monument that dazzled
them as they entered the platform. People
began to get up, pick up their
suitcases and approach the doors. The clatter of the train ceased, and the noise of the crowd grew.
"You should have sedated
him more," Rosa protested.
"How would I know that we would be so late," he said, and grabbed the bag that was
shaking incessantly. There was almost no way to hide the presence
of the creature. People looked at them as they walked through
the corridors of the carriage. The train finally stopped,
and despite the noise of the station,
the cries of the animal
stood out, similar
to the joyful moan of someone waking up after a sleep of several
hours.
Gustavo wanted to open the bag.
"He's going to suffocate with this agitation," he murmured in his wife's ear.
"Are you crazy?" She told him, holding back his hand that was about to untie the knot.
"Later, when we get to the business." -But he put his hand in the bag to caress the creature
and calm it, while the animal played
with his fingers,
biting them gently.
When they got off, the platform
was a compact mass of people walking
slowly towards
the exit turnstiles, so slowly that they both began to sweat under their coats. And the beast, desperate,
finished undoing the knot and escaped from the bag.
He tried to stop her by grabbing her tail, but he heard her squeal and saw her flee among the people, amazed
at that strange
animal that fleetingly passed by her. Rosa stood
still, not knowing what to
do.
"Good God," he murmured. "And now how are they going to cure me?" Bringing her was her idea, even though he didn't want to. Rosa thought that if the doctors studied the animal they would discover
what germs were infecting it. Gustavo, powerless
to refuse, agreed. He gave the animal several
doses of sedatives, and put it in a bag with holes.
He knew that the strange
creature was not going to be accepted
in the regular animal van.
When they left the station, they found themselves lost, and waited for the crowd to dissipate a little.
-Did you see an animal loose?
-They asked people
on the street.
-A dog? Yeah...
-No, no, it's like a rabbit, but with short ears, short hair, it's... -And they didn't know how to describe it.
They decided
to go to the place and rest. The business
was already set up, the pharmacy
they were going to serve
was already prepared
to open. For a week they took turns searching the surrounding wastelands and
parks. The neighbors brought them abandoned puppies of the same color as their child, but the Valverde spouses
patiently rejected them.
Gustavo
began to be known and respected for his masterful recipes. He attended emergencies and deliveries more frequently than the neighborhood doctor. His wife stayed
locked in the back room, only going out from time to time to walk near the station,
with her hand bandaged.
"They gave me medicine," she said one day when she returned
from the hospital.
"They asked what animal
bit me." "A
very strange one," I answered and I started
crying, because I'm going to lose my hand, Gustavo, they
told me so.
Two months
later, Rosa began
to suffer from a persistent fever. He spent
all day in bed,
and at night he went outside sweating
to breathe fresh
air. The smell
of his hand enveloped the bed and the house. Gustavo
treated the ulcer every morning, but that hand was no longer
anything but a shapeless, almost liquid mass. He removed
the larvae that reproduced during the night, and kept them in a jar with alcohol.
Some time later a neighbor told him:
-Do you know, Valverde? The other day I found
the strangest bug in my garden. He was
eating the plants, and I hit him with a shovel and left him dead right there. Similar
anecdotes spread throughout the area. The neighbors talked about the strange
animals that appeared at dawn in the streets
and gardens. The news spread
on local radio and television. The newspapers warned of the potential danger
of a group of exotic
beasts emerging from the drains to feed. The journalists interviewed the people of the neighborhood,
and everyone responded
by recounting their exploits against
the invasion.
"Was she pregnant?" Rosa asked him one afternoon, while they were listening to the
news on the radio, from bed. -Why did you not tell me? -Could
we do anything else?
They paid attention to the new measures against
the plague. "The municipal government
will receive support to fight..." Days later, shots
began to be heard during
the night, or cars
braking, which in the morning
left the corpse
of an animal crushed against
the asphalt.
The fumigation trucks traveled the streets of the neighborhood twice a day, distributing white, odorless smoke, imperceptible to the human nose but deadly to the plague.
The creatures then came out of hiding places.
The streets had to be closed
for an hour each morning
to remove the bodies.
Gustavo
stood on the corner, watching the mechanical shovels drag the white corpses under the cloudy winter sky. The constant
and pitiful drizzle did not disturb him. He no longer
felt cold like before, he was getting
used to the city's climate.
One morning
he got up before dawn, while she was still sleeping. He opened the pharmacy and went to watch the morning removal
of the bodies. Thinking about
Rosa, he decided
to go in to wake her up. He called her from the premises, looking into the hallway
that led to her room, but she did not answer him. In the room, he found her still lying down, but forever motionless, with her sick hand resting
on the bed. He stifled
a sigh. He then covered the body with a sheet and wrapped the hand with several cloths.
After carrying it to the laboratory, he immersed it in the pool of formaldehyde. The corpse of the beast collected in the street days ago sank, rising again next to Rosa's body.
They were both floating face down.
At noon, a mountain
of animals appeared
around the corner,
ready to be removed by bulldozers, exposed to the harshness of rain and cold. Valverde
went to look and stayed for a long time suppressing the desire to
extend his hands towards the pile of corpses, as if he wanted to rescue them all. But he hid them in his pockets
when he heard
someone talking to him.
"It's getting wet," a neighbor told him, who had come to look next to him. "It
doesn't matter," he answered.
-And your wife, how is she today? -He went on a trip this morning.-He said without leaving his gaze absorbed
in the street.-He returned to the field,
you know? She can't live without her animals.
THE GAME
Clara has returned to marry me. As if the humiliation
or resentment had disappeared, and the only thing left was something more like
remorse than love. The truth is that we barely saw each other, neither of us
wanted to remember the afternoon when it all started.
It was
near the end of the year. The school kids left at five in the afternoon. With
my friends Santos and Valverde we met at the door of Aníbal's father's
mechanical workshop. We were three prosperous merchants, I think embarrassingly
prosperous for that time. We smoked while sitting on the trunk of a car,
watching the teachers who had just left high school, shy and serious, walking
to the bus stop to return home. One of them in particular captured our
attention for more than a year: Clara Palacios. Little by little she was losing
her measured indifference. Every afternoon she greeted us with a strange and
beautiful look. Because she was the most beautiful of all the teachers at
school, we had to have her, possess her in any way.
I think
that then the germ of that other idea must have emerged, even if we were not
aware of it, seeing her walk with her precise and rhythmic clicking of her
heels, with the soft movement of her brown hair over her duster. The
intoxicating eucalyptus perfume that left its trail on the sidewalk seduced us
to the point of going crazy. And everything can be summed up in that, it seems
to me, madness and perdition.
We tried
to win her over, each one of us separately, but we completely collided with her
refusal.
"I
can't have dinner with you, Gustavo," she said to Valverde that afternoon,
holding the books with her arms over her chest, as the sun set early behind the
city. My friend watched her walk away from her to the bus stop, resentful,
knowing he was attractive and yet rejected for the first time. He returned
murmuring words to which I did not pay attention at the time, and which turned
out to be prophetic.
-You'll
see what awaits you.- He threatened with a blow of his fist on the car's sheet
metal. We took him to Santos' bar to calm him down.
A few days
later, Santos told us:
"This
time I'll try it." He took off his blue apron and opened his shirt a
little to show the hair on his chest. Smoothing his mustache, he began to wait
at the door.
From the
cafeteria we saw the teachers pass by surrounded by children, distracted in
their private world, separated from ours as if there were an abyss between the
sidewalk and the bar. Valverde and I helped ourselves to beers and salted
peanuts while we watched Santos.
At five
o'clock Clara passed by. She was going alone. He greeted her and they talked.
She was doing the same movement as always. A negative gesture with her perfect
head, her face similar to that of a nymph or a goddess. Some boys passed by
laughing secretly. Clara left.
Our friend
stood for a while in the doorway, behind the window with the name of the
business. He entered, adjusting his shirt inside his pants, and sighing.
"I
don't know why we bother so much," he said with restrained anger.
"She is a very common teacher."
-Come, old
man. Sit down and forget her.- We invite you to drink her own drinks until
we're sick. Shouting obscenities and confused, unavowedly perplexed.
One night
we went to the workshop, and Aníbal, who was in his last year of high school,
offered us a raffle for the end-of-year party.
-We raffle
a dinner in Buenos Aires, with a guided tour of the entire city.
-Go to
hell...- The three of us said, but then we each bought several numbers. Then
the seed of that primal idea sprouted there, that night, among dismantled cars,
the smell of gasoline, tools and dirty cards. We all look, without planning it,
without thinking why, at the almanac photo on the wall. That naked and
inaccessible girl pushed us towards the ravine from which we would no longer
get out. Valverde suddenly said: “I came up with a plan,” and it was not his
alone, but a collective expression of four excited and inconsolable bodies.
"Before we took women without questions," he continued saying.
"We dragged them into the darkness without knowing what happened before or
after." And what's wrong with that? I have a theory: men are animals, and
women are humans. That is why our voracity must surpass their intelligence.
Thus
Valverde established an irrevocable position, and he was the mentor of the game
we invented.
A week
later, my meeting with Clara was unplanned. I saw her appear at the door of the
bakery with her little gray suit and salmon-colored blouse, crossing her knees
with each rhythmic step, in a back-and-forth that was a pleasure to watch. She
would have stayed there, leaning on the counter, without time passing, admiring
her eternal beauty like that of a sphinx.
"Good
morning, Casas," he told me, and started looking behind me with his eyes.
-What do
you need, Clara?
-Invoices,
this afternoon I'm taking the kids to the plaza.
Then she
told him I spoke without
thinking, I threw myself into the encounter of chance without plans or
strategies.
-Can you
let me accompany you?
She looked
at me curiously, neither upset nor scared. Her hair danced in the air from the
ceiling fan as she looked at the baskets of freshly baked bread. The aroma of
yeast wafted through her nose, and she reached out a hand to grab a piece of
candy from the candy jar.
-As many
as you want, Clara.- She invited her, separating the lid from her. Our hands
crossed, they touched as if skin were not skin, but a path with no return.
That
afternoon we had no witnesses other than the boys in his class, and children
don't see if they don't suspect. That's why my friends didn't know about our
meeting, nor about those who followed it for six weeks until December. She
arrived at the bakery half an hour before entering school. I went to look for
her when everyone had left, and she stayed in the empty classroom, waiting for
me.
"Forgive me," she told him then. "I had a lot of work
today."
Afterwards
we would go away talking, where the neighborhood was different, and the people
were almost unknown. I think I started hiding it at that moment, when things
became irreversible.
Once we
crossed paths with Aníbal. He greeted us with a worried look.
-Hello,
Miss Clara, Mr. Casas.
-How are
the raffles going?- She asked him.
He and I
looked at each other in silence, thinking that silence was a wall that could
protect us from guilt.
"Well, they sell well," he answered, and ran in the direction
of Valverde's pharmacy.
December
10th was the end of the year party. It was an annual dinner where the kids sang
on stage, and a small hired band performed tangos for the parents to dance to.
At twelve at night the draw was held.
We all
went, the entire neighborhood. The costumed children reviewed their actions, and
those who would not perform went to steal food from table to table, then sneak
to where the grill fire was glowing. The smoke from the barbecue rose in front
of the mercury street lights.
It was a
splendid and warm night. Several times I told Clara, before she left, that she
had things to do, that I wasn't feeling well, that I wasn't going to go. But
she insisted.
Her eyes,
by God, her eyes of immense beauty moved me, urged me to face what I knew was
going to condemn me. I put on the suit stored with mothballs in the closet. She
hugged me without caring about that smell, smiling, and I felt like a fallen
angel, a demon under the skin of a baker.
"I'm
pregnant," she told me just before entering the school door, and looking
at me out of the corner of her eye she covered my mouth. She got into the
hustle and bustle of the party without giving me a chance to speak to her. We
had arrived together, not holding hands, but together like two who ten minutes
before had been lying in the same bed. However, everyone seemed blind. When her
classmates surrounded us, they only looked at her.
-How
beautiful, Clara, how beautiful you are! -And they took her to her group.
I went
with my friends, who ate like animals. The aroma of stale wine rose from the
dozens of bottles scattered in a corner of the patio. The children trampled us
all the time in their runs, and the music sounded strident through the worn-out
loudspeakers.
"We
are going to lower the air of superiority to that mine," Santos told me,
drunk and with his beard dirty with grease.
Valverde
observed everything calmly, controlled, like a vivisector who regulates his
task with meticulousness. The men, my friends and other strangers, winked at me
as they looked at me. “Complicity is perhaps the most indestructible bond in
the world,” I thought out loud, but they didn't listen to me.
The music
suddenly stopped. The director went up to the stage and asked a girl to help
her draw the prizes. From a red bag they took the winning numbers from the
tables served and at the end the number from the trip. This lasted almost half
an hour; People looked everywhere with each number sung. But I felt the
anxiety, the expectation that, like a ghost, hovered over the environment tired
of heat and smoke.
Then
Valverde took the stage. Some did not know what it was about, and were silent.
Clara looked there, without surprise, without any suspicion. I grabbed Valverde
by the seat of his pants.
-No! .- I
told him.- No! .- But he broke away and I couldn't stop him anymore.
-Now the
final draw, with a big surprise. Please, Clara, do us the favor of coming to
the stage.- And she extended her hand towards where she was. We looked at her,
silent, as she went up, intrigued.
Those who
knew us did not understand at first. The children continued playing without
paying attention. Hannibal ran away, to hide, I think. Some voices spoke
timidly.
-This is
the most anticipated award-. Valverde said-. The prettiest teacher in the
school.
For thirty
seconds everything was confusion. Then C Lara began to cry without moans, without noise, in
a silence similar to the cry of a dead person. And I, so far away, so mute now,
I kept my mouth shut and didn't stop the drama.
-Forty!- Valverde shouted. It was my number.
That pink checkbook paper stung my suit pocket. I looked for it, I wanted to
destroy it, swallow it, get rid of the evidence of the crime. He needed the
rain or the moon to destroy him right there with his legendary magic. I heard
my name.
-Rodrigo
Casas is the winner! - Everyone watched me. I was sweating, and without looking
at her, I knew what Clara was doing at that moment.
She gave a
small, barely audible scream, like a soul-consuming implosion. Her eyes
swiveled from one place to another, without stopping. Her chest heaved with
jerky movements. She then got out, and she ran into the darkness, beyond the
spotlights, where the light from the party couldn't reach her.
But I
didn't follow her. I knew that she was tied to me in an unspeakable way, and
that one day she was going to return. I saw her neat hair swaying in the night,
the gold chain around her neck, and her flat shoes thundering on the tiles,
like the judgmental hammering of a judge.
THE FUGITIVES
The house was already
old when Pablo and María Cortéz moved in. They had left the Mar de Ajó apartment
shortly before, at the end of that summer when she became pregnant. In the city they were told that the owner of the bakery was renting
an abandoned house, and
they toured the neighborhood with old Rambler.
Finding it, they walked along
the only path that led to the main door. It had a vague European style, with huge windows facing the front, and moss on the walls.
"Is that okay with you, María?" Pablo asked her.
-Yes.-She only answered, because
above all things
she wanted to stop running
away. It didn't matter what the house looked like, the only thing that was essential was to stop and
hide.
María waited
for him at the door with the suitcases, while
he locked the car. Upon entering the first thing
they noticed was the wood covering the entire interior. The floor was tarnished, the stairs and railings were splintered, the ceiling was eaten away by insects.
She left her luggage in the hall without daring to continue, he saw her look of sad disappointment
and had to take her arm and push her gently.
-Couldn't you see her in your dreams? -He asked. But he knew that if he had discovered
something bad, he would have told her right away.
They went up to the upper floor, from where they contemplated the entire area of the neighborhood, quiet, asleep on that Sunday afternoon, and beyond, near the cathedral, it was
waking up from its nap. The floor of the room echoed loudly under their footsteps, so they
remained on the balcony, thinking
about the beach. Maria was the one she missed the most, she
had lived there
since her birth.
But shortly after
meeting Pablo it became necessary to escape; He still
kept the memory
of his two years in prison too vivid.
"This is the only place I'm free." I had told him many times, on the beach. But after a while he began to have the new feeling
that the sea had become
another wall of his prison.
Despite so much change of water, he used to say, so much death and resurrection, the result was absolute immobility. The waves seemed to warn him that the path of the world ended there.
They heard
the bells of the last mass of the day. Pablo carried
the suitcases with the
creaking of the stairs, while she tidied up the kitchen. The oven was useless, the water had a rusty color,
and they did not dare to bathe.
They lay on the floor,
hardly speaking, and María
had one of her dreams.
She called them that because
she had to name them somehow, but they
didn't necessarily happen at night or when she was asleep. Sometimes
they were harbingers of events that would happen
sooner or later.
Sounds and voices
that no one else
heard.
That night he heard
the screams for the first
time. He didn't
know if they were from joy or tears, where or who they came from. She looked at Pablo next to her, tossing and turning
sleeplessly, listening, not to the voices, but to the noises of the house, as if the construction was adjusting to the weight they had brought.
"He must be thinking about
the sea that is
chasing him," she said to herself. Those
were the words
Paul used the day they decided to flee.
Not even on the coast,
as anonymous as they were,
they would be safe. The salary was no
longer enough for them, and although he had tried
to connect with his friends
to obtain some of the stolen money, he had not been able to obtain it. Separated
from them when they
captured him, he never saw them again. He had told her all this when he met her on the coast, trying to hide from the police.
They lived together
for two months,
and during that time she had
her first dreams
about Pablo. He had heard
the police sirens,
and warned him. He was the
first to believe her, and accustomed as she was to being
called crazy, María
felt happier than ever.
When he woke up in the morning, he checked one of the suitcases. From a box, next to Pablo's revolver, she picked
up a handful of sand to smell
it, like when she was a girl and sat on
the shore looking
toward the sea. In those
years he heard
the first voices
he could remember, and although he searched everywhere he had never
been able to discover where they came from. They just kept ringing in his ears.
He went to the kitchen, and since there was nothing left but the remains of the food from the trip, he got dressed
and went out to the street. Businesses were beginning to open their doors with aromas of vegetables and bread. He entered the bakery "La
colonial" and talked
with the owner, who spoke to him with an air of subtle
seduction. The pregnancy was not yet noticeable, and her brown
hair, falling over her narrow
shoulders, gave her a delicate
and defenseless appearance. She told him that her husband had once worked in a pizzeria, and asked if he needed a helper.
"Let him come this afternoon and we'll talk," the baker answered.
María returned
excited, and just before reaching
the house she heard the shots. They came from the street,
but everything was normal at that time, the kids walked to school and the
delivery trucks stopped
on the corner. However, they had been too intense
to come from one of his dreams. Then he saw Pablo reading
the newspaper in the kitchen,
half dressed and distracted.
-Did you hear something? "No, why?" He told
her.
But she didn't want to worry him, that morning he seemed calm after a long time. He was beginning to believe that they could settle down and stay there forever.
Pablo started
working at the bakery, and within the first month
he asked for a loan to buy furniture. As the porters brought in the dining room table and bed, a crash echoed through the
floorboards. Everyone
heard it, although Maria at the same time heard a brief scream that had barely surpassed the previous noise.
He was curious, not afraid,
because somehow the old,
sterile sounds of the house
seemed to have stimulated the perception of more subtle
and indefinable ones.
The next time happened
that same afternoon, and he looked out the window to make
sure the voice wasn't coming
from the street.
For the rest of the day she sat on a chair
in the middle of the room,
as if forming or being
herself a part of the furniture, and began to listen
with extreme attention. Then he could make out two overlapping voices,
male voices screaming in
panic.
When he told Paul,
he regretted having
done it. A look of concern invaded
her husband's face, and he went out to the balcony
to smoke. Surely she would think of a new way to escape, to leave the house that she was beginning to feel like her own. He did not decide, however, to also tell her about the shootings, which were repeated with greater frequency in the
following days.
Later she was afraid of being alone, and she went to the bakery when the uninterrupted
sound of weapons became
unbearable. As he walked away,
the force of the shots
decreased, and he turned around looking
at the profile of the solitary house on the block, dirty and sad under
the cloudy autumn sky. Since sometimes I didn't want to disturb
them in the business, I would
visit a neighbor or stay locked in the bathroom,
where the noises would be subdued.
One day he looked for her everywhere when he returned from work, and María came out of the room in which
she had locked
herself, hugging his neck, crying.
-What did you hear?
Tell me.-Pablo asked
her, comforting her with warm caresses on her
wet cheeks.
She was about to tell him about the sirens and the screams,
but this was her home now,
and she wasn't about to leave it. That's why he didn't
say anything to him. Pablo
lay down looking at her worried.
She knew that bitter expression, with his mind obsessed by the sirens of the cars that one day would come looking for him. She approached him to caress
him, and he pulled away abruptly,
annoyed, as if he were trapped.
Two months later, they bought more used furniture. They had spent the entire loan, but it was no longer possible for them to be careful.
They thought that perhaps, by filling the house
with greater weight, his insistent moaning would disappear. They were chosen
for one reason only, not their usefulness or their beauty,
but because of their weight.
They looked for solid
wood, as dead and immobile
as possible. The workers distributed the furniture, and the
creaking of the house echoed again. Pablo was beginning
to get a little more nervous by the
minute, treating the workers with sharp orders
and furious shouts.
Then she heard the voices again, even more so when the men finished and the sound of
the boards stopped. He saw Pablo arguing
with them about paying for transportation, and when
he heard him speak in that tone, the voices mixed. María felt dizzy, a shout of angry men
was surrounding her. And he was not able to distinguish the real voices
from those in his
dreams.
Afterwards only one persisted, that of Pablo.
Hers was the only one similar to the original duo of screams that had
disturbed her since her arrival.
In the following week, the pregnancy
occupied her thoughts,
and she decided to forget everything else. The house
seemed to respond
to him by attenuating the sound of the wood, and Pablo was now calmer and more
enthusiastic about his work in the business.
At the end of winter, the source of the screams
resurfaced. They tried
to spend most of
the time apart, unable to explain the need for sudden rejection. On weekends she stayed in bed,
and he went from room to room with nails
and a hammer. He repaired
the loose boards and those that were not, with the obsessive
idea that this way he could reduce the moaning
of the house.
In October,
María began to feel the pains of childbirth and waited for Pablo to return
before going in search of the doctor who lived across the street. Half an hour later the baby
was
born and the doctor was cleaning him, lulling him to sleep. Maria, with a frightened look,
looked up at the doctor.
The pain had already passed, but that lullaby, instead of calming her,
disturbed her spirit,
because she recognized the voice, the same one that, along with Pablo's,
was screaming in fear.
Then
the sound of sirens came, although this time she was sure it wasn't her imagination. The two men ran to the window, and she, from her bed, could see the patrol cars in front of the door, setting the neighborhood on fire with their red lights. Pablo looked for the revolver from the closet,
and holding the doctor by the neck he opened
the street door.
The police shined their headlights on him and pointed them at him.
-If you don't leave, I'll kill him! -He shouted.
When he closed, he tied him to a chair and went to turn off all the lights. Afterwards he stayed with his wife for a while.
"I'm going alone," he said to María, while caressing his daughter.
María started
to cry, she wanted to accompany him and warn him of danger, she was the only one who could do it. But he
refused.
"You couldn't prevent me this time, my love, maybe you lost your gift." She wanted to say something, but she knew it was useless.
Pablo would leave before dawn if he managed
to evade the police, so he closed all the doors
and shutters of the house. By the time he finished, it was already
difficult for him to
breathe. Touching his bare chest, heaving and sweaty, he walked around the room with an involuntary whistle from his narrow throat.
He went from one window
to another in search of a crack of fresh air. She noticed
the expression of hopeless despair
in her husband's eyes, in that
face where the darkness and suffocation were increasingly similar
to the confinement of a prison.
The old house had been, since his arrival, a new prison for him.
Before dawn the doctor
managed to remove
the gag and shouted for help.
Pablo woke up scared from the light sleep he was in, and without thinking, like a reflex, he shot him in the neck.
The body moved
convulsively for a few seconds
and then stopped.
Maria got up to stop the blood with her sheets,
and began to cry.
"I already knew it, I already knew it!" She said, moaning desperately, and when she realized her words it was already too late.
Pablo looked
at her now with incomprehensible terror, as if she had been transformed into an object or a place,
something more like a place
of inevitable confinement than a woman.
Then he made an extreme choking
gesture and ran towards the door. When he opened the door, the shots
that killed him were heard.
THE STAINS
Casas stood in front of the bathroom mirror on a fall Monday morning. His pregnant wife was still sleeping in the room.
-Clara!-He called. -It is six o'clock! Looking at his freshly shaved face, he saw the freckles
that had reappeared since the last time he grew a beard.
"They went away when I grew up, and now I have them again," he told his wife, and she
showed him her own spot, one that had sprouted
right in the center of her belly since the beginning of the pregnancy. An opaque white circle, with the color and shape of a jasmine
petal. Sometimes Casas
would lean his head on it, trying
to listen to his son's
growth through that white
window, and he could also smell the perfume. Not that of his wife's
skin, but the aroma of his grandmother's garden.
Rodrigo looked at his grandmother with indiscreet insistence every time he went to visit
her when he was a child. It was inevitable for him to observe his head carefully until the moment he had to leave, as if he really saw something more than that skull with no more hair
than two gray strands on the back of his neck. He thought he saw coherent
drawings in the strange shapes of the moles on the old woman's skin,
different colors that he could
never classify. The body was already
defeated, but his voice was special. When he listened
to her, Rodrigo felt an
unknown fear.
Throughout the afternoon at the bakery,
Casas thought about what he was going to do with Costa. The old man had helped him a lot, it was true, but he wanted the big place in front of
the square.
"I'm sick, kid, I need money like my daily bread," the old man told him.
"But you're dying," Casas thought, resentful, anxious as he had never been before.
-Lower the advance a little and I promise to pay you the rest in installments.-Casas insisted.
However, he could not convince him. The guy was delirious
in his illness, he seemed to
deny the real state of his body.
That's why that night I was finally
going to challenge him.
There was already another interested party, someone who did not need the premises, who might even rent it to him to transform
him into a debtor for life.
Looking at the clock on the wall, he hurried to finish the work. He left the old garage where the business
now operated and told himself
that this would
be the last time.
-I'm going
to have a son, man, I want my own business. My bakery is going to be the best
in the neighborhood, you understand? Clara is going to decorate
the stained glass windows,
and everyone who passes by on the sidewalk will be able to smell
the aroma of freshly baked bread.
Costa was in bed, in his flimsy, creaking
metal bed. A weak lamp plunged the right side of his face into an agonizing
luminosity.
-Tomorrow the buyer comes,
he offered me cash that I can't
refuse. You know,
kid? My treatment is expensive.
Casas grabbed
his pajamas with his fists,
and the fleeting
idea that he could kill him right there without anyone ever knowing frightened him.
-He has been promising me this for ten years.
Why the hell did I work hard for you, you old miser?
Then Costa had a spasm, his chest moved convulsively, and for an instant he opened his eyes
wider, just an imprecise period
of time in which he waited for the arrival
of death.
Then they stayed still forever, just like when Casas' grandmother died.
Grandma's home had the aroma of rain on its walls. Walls covered
with moss and plants.
The smell of the dogs filled the rooms and beds. That perfume remained
in her nose all week, until the moment she returned to fix her astonished gaze on the old woman's
almost dead head.
"What are you looking
at?" She shouted
at him, and Rodrigo, holding
back his tears,
fled from her side.
No one ever told him about his illness
until he was older. She only knew that he went to the hospital in the capital every three months, and returned in silence. The spots on his head were taking on their character, a shape that was indecipherable to him. If he could have
gotten closer and taken the skull in his hands,
he would have studied it like a globe in search
of seas and lands.
Casas held Costa's head in his palms and closed his eyelids with his thumbs.
He sat there for perhaps ten minutes, motionless, and then shuffled
through the papers on his desk.
There were dozens of old documents, and his surprise
knew no limits when he found the title
deeds to the large house next to the warehouse
and all the lots on that block. Suddenly
he found himself master of all that;
He and Clara and their
son would be the richest
and most respected family in
the neighborhood.
Desperate, he kept looking at the corpse, as if he were going to wake up and discover it, as if he were not sure of the effectiveness of death.
Then he grabbed the sales contract for the premises, put it on the table and turned on the big lights. Something
disappeared in that moment, perhaps
the shadow, which had become so
heavy in that room. The truth is that when you sat down at the typewriter, something else
guided your hands when adding the other properties in the document.
Then he signed his signature and that of the old man. It came out so similar
that everyone would
say upon seeing it that Costa made it at the last second of his life.
Looking at the corpse,
he put the contract in the nightstand drawer. He went to the bathroom and washed his face. An intense itch was bothering
him again. He looked in the
medicine cabinet and only found an old lavender that smelled. In the mirror, full of small spots of rust, he had a hard time looking
at the freckles, the renewed
spots.
He picked up the phone and called his friend.
-Seal the document and then we'll settle with the money.-When he hung up he was thinking about how much he would give to the notary.
Once he had looked
at his grandmother for a long time.
She approached him and said, with a finger pointing
to her own skull: "You're going to grow spots like mine from looking so much." Then he had sat down without saying anything else, and the whole family watched
Rodrigo, making signs
for him not to cry. Several months
later she died,
and the funeral
was invaded by strange
people. The old relatives commented that the grandmother had
frequented them for the last twenty years.
They were almost all women with extravagant dresses,
silver jewelry and full of curious
symbols. Some approached the coffin making strange
movements with their hands, as if they were
forming spherical figures
in the air, and the spiral tobacco
smoke emanated from their
lips, further thinning the atmosphere filled with flowers
and incense.
Rodrigo made his way through them,
until he reached
the grandmother's body.
The stains were still
there, even more shapeless, and he decided
to touch it. He couldn't
think about it too
much, he didn't really want to, and as he did so he noticed
the softness of the whitish flesh, the smell of flowers that he carried
on his body. The women
had covered it with
jasmine petals. That night, when she looked in the mirror after the funeral, she discovered the freckles on her hands
and face. Very small freckles, milk tea color.
Almost beautiful stains
if it weren't for the horror he felt when he saw them. He was sick two weeks after this, and the
doctor found no cause.
Casas stayed
in Costa's room all night.
In the morning he put a sign of mourning
on the door and called Clara
on the phone.
-The old man died last night, I have to prepare things for the wake. "I don't feel well today," she said. "I
better stay home."
At ten in the morning the buyer appeared. The man agreed with Costa's last wish, and left without saying anything
else. Casas was now the new owner
of the entire block.
It would have a business with wide doors facing the square, with double windows
and the largest kitchen in the
entire neighborhood.
They came to look for the body at twelve, in full sun, and Casas
closed the warehouse forever.
The dogs from the big house next door howled.
The hearse
passed in front
of the new premises. Casas
smiled, and his mind planned
the immovable framework of the future.
He was at the wake until very late, but few came to say goodbye to the old man. Soon, the drawer and the garage door were closed.
"Tomorrow at eight o'clock in the cemetery," the employees told him, and he said
goodbye to them.
When he got home,
Clara was already
in bed and he didn't
want to wake her. He undressed and got under
the sheets, feeling
that itch on his face again. It took him a while
to fall asleep, but he dreamed
of Costa. With his dead face, whose voice came from another place or another world. And he defended himself
by hitting everywhere.
He woke up agitated,
the bed was messy and Rodrigo had Clara's arm clinging to his
shoulder.
"So many blows you gave, dear,
you almost killed
me." She said with her eyes half closed,
panting agitatedly. Clara
was sweating and burning with fever.
He caressed her to calm her, but he began to smell a peculiar smell, a fresh and bitter aroma.
The jasmine perfume returned from time or distance.
Casas ran to the window and the morning
light illuminated his wife's moans,
her crying, and the sheets that moved like the dunes on a beach. Then, separating the blankets with a
brutal movement, she discovered that enormous red hole of blood flooding
the nightgown and the bed, like a pregnant
well through which
dead children go forever.
THE DOG YARD
One afternoon
we met at the corner of the wood and brick house, already old and ruined since before we were born. Two women named Cortez lived there. The mother was a fortune teller or seer, or simply a witch as we called her; and the daughter, barely a year older than us, was quiet and sickly,
but nevertheless had a strange
beauty. Santiago and I followed
her when she left the school,
to the door where the old woman was waiting
for her to prepare the session room.
At that time we were only eleven or twelve years
old. During the summer, with Santiago
and Laura we would sit on the sidewalk of the pharmacy
or the bakery, and then we would go
to
the house to watch the dogs. They had twelve, an invariable number of animals that barked at anyone who approached the owners' dirty garden. During the night, their howls could be heard
throughout the neighborhood, as pitiful and desperate as if they had not been fed in
weeks. In the morning they came out carrying plates of nauseating food, and the dogs
jumped around them, growling at each other.
When I shouted at them,
they fell silent
and crouched against the floor, afraid and submissive only to the
women's voices. But at night
the howling ritual
was always repeated
again, and this became a mystery
even more fascinating than the peculiar way in which the old woman made her living.
"Let's do it quickly," Santiago murmured, still in his school uniform,
his hair slicked,
and the cardboard box in his hands. He kept the lid closed tightly with his right hand, while Laura pulled the hair clip we had asked for out of her hair.
I think that morning at school, none of the three of us thought about anything other than what we planned to do that afternoon. We did not feel afraid, we knew the total helplessness of the old woman for anything other than insulting
us from the door of the house. We never really bothered her until that day, and if we did it was because strange
things started to be
said about them. Rumors and fables regarding their dogs. So we, out of ungovernable curiosity, decided to keep
watch.
We gave the first
turn to Laura,
who then went to her piano lessons.
Santiago took the second, until six in the afternoon, when I replaced
him. We kept watch for several months, until we discovered that the twelve dogs were never the same. The most curious
thing was that we never saw them escape or die. When one disappeared, the next morning another had taken
his place.
The witch
Cortez's sessions began
at two in the afternoon, so we hid behind the warehouse. The box trembled
in Santiago's hands, and we covered it to hide it, as if its contents could be seen through the cardboard. Laura
ran close to the entrance
and the dogs barked.
"They are feeding them," he told us when he returned. From afar we observed the fountains whose smell filled
the neighborhood until
nightfall, and we saw how the animals pounced on the dishes.
Half an hour later, a car stopped in front, and two fat old women, with reddish
hair and covered in silver necklaces, got out. We heard barking,
the daughter's voice silencing them, and then the strident greeting with which the fortune teller welcomed her clients. The old woman looked
older than her age. The exaggerated paint on the face, the dyed hair and the sadly decrepit frame of the house
gave it that appearance. She raised her hand in a gesture
of great solemnity and invited them to enter.
Then we walked there. The barking began again, as we ran along the path that led to the back garden and the shed.
It was a kind of driveway, separated from the rest of the house by a very low wall. The dogs never
jumped over it, nor did they jump over the fence that separated them from the sidewalk. It made us think many times that they did not want to
leave; Perhaps they wanted to die protected by the extensive shadow of the building, among
the smell of incense
that came out of the windows. They were common animals, mongrels, almost a breed of bastard dogs.
They barked at me from four inches away along the entire length of the wall, showing their teeth threateningly but not daring to jump. In the previous weeks we had discovered that pregnant females
disappeared before giving
birth, and it was this that decided
Laura, finally, to accompany
us. Santiago and I, on the other hand, did it out of curiosity, and perhaps also out of a weak sense of justice
towards those animals.
We reach the back door. It was locked, so Laura grabbed her buckle, opened the lock, and ran out into the street.
Now only a mosquito panel
separated us from the kitchen.
I went first, and if I wanted to do it it was because I felt that I was gaining something from those women, that unconscious fight that we were waging against
their deliberate secrecy.
"Come on, give me the box!" I yelled at Santiago.
I opened the screen door and threw in the box. Fired like a bullet, the white cat detached itself from the cardboard and went directly
to the visiting room. I heard the strange phrases that the old woman
was saying about
the crystal ball stop, and across the kitchen I saw her enraged silhouette rise.
"Ready Eduardo, run!" My friend shouted, and then I saw his shadow opening the fence.
The dogs had been freed, and they chased the cat into the living room, where the women jumped out of their chairs,
screaming like crazy.
The animals circled
around the room, destroying the porcelain plates,
and suddenly the crystal ball fell from the table.
When it exploded, its countless fragments looked like fireworks. Then, the old woman collapsed unconscious on the living room
floor.
I fled a second
later, laughing and crying at the same time, with the image
of his face against the ground
and his bloody
skull. The cat ran away,
I think. But the dogs stayed. They did
not dare to go beyond the boundaries of the house. They remained
locked in that free
space of the patio, fatefully submissive.
-How is she? -We asked a few days later, trying
to appear simply
curious, so that the guilt would not give us away. That's
how we learned that an artery had burst in his head after the blow, and half his body was paralyzed. The daughter took care of the house
from that day on.
I haven't met my friends in a long time. However, I had to go through the sidewalk of the house every morning
to go to school, and I began
to notice that the girl fed the dogs less frequently. They pounded on the door, howling, receiving no response. I witnessed the death
of each one over the course of several weeks. I saw how, fallen with their legs defeated, they died peacefully, almost feeling guilty.
One afternoon a municipal truck
came to collect
the bodies.
-Who called? -The guy who looked like an inspector wanted to know.
-It was me. -Said one of the neighbors
gathered on the sidewalk, with a defiant
gesture and a finger
moving accusingly in front of the man's
face. -And if you allow
me to say it, here we
all know that the witch
bribed them so that They got him animals.
-You can't prove it, ma'am, you can't... -The man defended himself, walking away with an indignant expression.
They took all the dogs, except the one that remained alive and hidden behind some boards. I didn't
say anything to them and waited for them to leave. He was the last, the smallest of all.
He tore open the wooden door,
and the girl began to look at him from the window.
Giving a scream he chased it away, and the animal ran towards the back yard. I decided to look for it, and
that's why I hid until she closed the curtains.
A while later I walked crouching next to the wall, a little further than where I arrived the previous time. My sneakers were slippery in the mud, and I felt a crunch under
my feet. Losing my balance I fell onto a pile of fragile, wet bones, piled
up against the wall, hidden
by the shadow of the house.
They were short
and small bones,
like the skeletons of dogs. I felt
nauseous and walked away towards
the shed at the back, from which the heat of the boiler
flames reached me. Peeking out the door,
I saw a wooden and straw chair,
and more bones scattered on the floor around it.
"Get out, get out!" I heard someone tell me in a tone of contempt.
The old woman, whom I didn't
see before because
of the darkness, was screaming at me hysterically. With one hand he stoked the fire, and with the other, forever dead at the side of the body,
he tried in vain to grab some piece of meat and chew it. But I couldn't anymore.
I ran out into the street, and the surviving dog ran away with me.
SUNDAYS
After ringing
the doorbell, I caressed the old door of my parents' house. The wood was
also sweating from the humidity
that Sunday. Since his death, my brother
and his family occupied it. The day after
Mom's funeral they moved without
notice. They brought
the furniture in a truck, and the neighborhood watched them unload their things as if the house had
always belonged to them.
-How about?
-Daniel had asked
me when I went to see the spare parts,
but I preferred to remain silent,
like so many other times.
Since then, I only had to visit
them on weekends
to take my nephew
to the court. It became
a ritual eagerly
awaited every Sunday.
That day they were having lunch
in the kitchen. The boy, as soon as he saw me, ran to his
room to change.
"I'm going to sell the house, we're moving to Buenos Aires," Daniel said, reading
the newspaper, without looking at me, oblivious to my face full of panic, extreme vertigo clouding
my eyes.
The first
thing I thought
then was that I was going to lose Gabriel.
If they moved
I would only see him sporadically. He wouldn't even be the second father,
the Sunday replacement, the assistant
who went out onto the field in the last fifteen minutes of the game. That's how it happened with us since
we were kids.
At the club, Daniel was always the starter, the captain
of the team, the one who planned
the plays. Once the coach
told me:
-You come in, kid.
When Daniel left the field, he murmured in my ear:
-Don't screw up the game.
My sister-in-law's voice woke me up from my memories.
-Don't buy him ice cream, he has a sore throat today. "It's
okay, Alicia," I answered.
Gabriel ran back, dressed in jeans and the team t-shirt. Daniel had not accompanied us to the field for a long time. He was tired,
he said, and he relegated that task to me.
I thanked
him as if I had finally obtained
his approval. But this time he insisted
on coming with us.
We took the last slices of pizza from lunch to the car. Gabriel leaned out of the Torino's
sliding roof and his father held him by his belt. We talked for a while about the championship, but
I needed to talk about the house.
-Are you sure about selling it? Look, I would like to stay there. My apartment rent is due at the end of the year,
and...
-And what are you going to do with that fucking
house alone?
Then I
remembered that feeling of abrupt emptiness I had every time Daniel beat me.
That was what had happened in mom's womb. the food and blood that belonged
to both of us. It pushed me and absorbed the vital fluid, it deliberately took away my strength. Thus my brother had become the natural heir. The firstborn for two minutes, but the first at the end.
Gabriel watched
us carefully from the back seat, as if he were studying
the physical difference between
us. Our hair was curly
and brown, long at the nape of the neck,
with the reddish
beard cut close to the skin. This time, without planning it, we had dressed almost the same,
like when we were kids and confused people.
-How many did they fool, dad? -He asked, and we both laughed.
We were united for just a moment by that laughter
similar to an aura, a heavenly gift granted and stolen the next second. Nothing more than a white t-shirt with a different print differentiated us.
I stopped
the car at a corner,
and I heard Gabriel ask me things
that I had never thought to tell him.
-Why didn't you get married, uncle?
I laughed almost without realizing it.
-I don't know, man. The truth is that women are complicated, or am I the one who understands them less and less every day.
Suddenly, Daniel's
voice emerged as if it were an echo of that moan that he had already heard in his mother's
womb. The walls of the organ were a cavern.
"Your uncle is a selfish piece of shit," he said. And I hit the steering wheel with my right fist, while I continued driving with my left. But my brother laughed, and then Gabriel's face quickly went away in surprise.
In just a minute the air tensed to immediately relax, thus testing the elemental rope that had always united
us. It was at that moment that I knew what I had to do to defeat my brother
once and for all. Since
he was stronger than me, I had to catch
him off guard.
In the parking lot Gabriel ran to get ahead, and locking the car, I mentally went over the steps of my plan over and over again. Daniel now walked beside me tall and proud, without seeing or even suspecting the
darkness that was forming around him. A shadow similar to the one I inhabited
until I was born. Because I was sure that Daniel, by taking away my food, had hoped that I would die without ever seeing the light.
The stadium
was covered in a roar of hoarse voices. We are located
fifteen minutes before starting
the game. The weather deteriorated very quickly, and a light
rain was beginning to fall when the game began. The smell of sweat grew, surrounding us. The men sang,
jumping on the stands. Flags
and papers waved
in the thick Sunday air.
They seemed to get stuck, to become suspended mud. We took off our shirts and wiped off the sweat.
-Do you remember the fight we had before we were born? Didn't you ever have the feeling that you were born exhausted
after the effort you made to beat me? -I asked Daniel.
-What are you talking about? -Come on, old man, you're not going to tell me that you never had the idea of killing me.
"Fuck you!" He told me with that gesture of unbearable superiority that I hated.
In the midst of the stridency, I rested my face in my hands, and those seconds that marked my brother's invincible advantage disappeared for a while.
I waited for a goal. I waited with infinite anxiety, as if at that point, in that move chosen at random perhaps by God himself
or providence, I was placing
the eternity of my soul.
The men around me were suffering, clinging to the wire fence, mad and anxious. I remained seated, waiting.
And when it happened, the stadium seemed to collapse. An uncontrollable group began
to fall in an avalanche from
the highest stands. It was a mass of blows and deafening screams.
Daniel was there, ready to take the impact and pay his share of the fate that had been
prepared for him.
Then I knocked him out with a direct,
cold blow that any of those guys could have given
him, and from which I desperately hoped
he would never
wake up again.
I saw a large piece
of rubble next to my feet,
and something made me reach
out to grab it. But the guys around me started staring at me. I hurried
to take off the shirt
tied to his belt, and put it on.
I found Gabriel several
meters away, jumping
and shouting with joy, hidden among the shapeless mass of bodies that moved to
the rhythm of a wave. I approached him speaking like Daniel.
I didn't really know where my conscience was when I did it. It was just like another
person took over me.
The game was ending.
"Uncle, we're leaving!" Gabriel shouted, looking around. I also started calling with my brother's accent and tones.
-He must have left with some mine. Don't worry. We left the stadium
and I opened the car.
-Did he give you the keys, dad? My hands shook for a second.
-No. I always have a few copies of the guy's car.
Now he had my brother's son, and in a few minutes he would be the owner of his wife
and his house.
Like a poacher, he had stolen her life. However, my hands continued to tremble on the steering wheel.
The men continued to leave in groups through
the stadium doors. Naked and dirty torsos, flags and signs red as blood.
Suddenly, Daniel's reddish beard appeared among the raised arms and the voices
of the fanatical fans. And his beaten
and recovered body reached the car
and hit the door again and again.
"Uncle!" Gabriel said to the man who attacked us from the street.
One of the windows
splintered with a punch from the outside,
and the glass
hurt the boy's forehead. Several trickles of blood
ran down his face.
Then everything seemed to disappear. The warm, maternal
air of the car, the sound of the
engine so similar
to my mother's monotonous voice, the rain-wet
windows simulating the opalescent fluidity of yolk fluid, all of this was now expanding to come out of its cloister and free
itself.
The door opened and a strong arm, undoubtedly stronger than mine, threw me to the ground, to the pavement covered
in saliva and garbage. My brother got into the car with Gabriel.
-Dude, what's happening?! "I'm your old man!" Daniel shouted, grabbing him by the shoulders.
-Dad, help me!-The boy begged me-I'm afraid of the guy! And I, sitting there in the mud, weak and dirty,
started laughing like a madman.
THE HOUSE WOMAN
Some neighbors
said that Clara began seeing my uncle Antonio shortly
after finding out that
she was sick. Others who had done it before.
The truth is that, one night ten years ago, when
she was undressing, she found a red, wet stain on her bra, and she was afraid.
I remember
the day he returned with Laura from the hospital. I worked in the business
at the time, and I saw them come in. Laura, happy and carefree, with her blonde hair, looked with curiosity at her mother's
livid appearance. Clara,
on the other hand, was pale and mute, so much
so that she forgot to greet me, left her daughter with me and went to the kitchen.
She looked very white, with her hair disheveled by the early wind of that autumn, and her coat open,
revealing her gray dress.
If she said anything to her husband
about the illness,
I don't know. Presumably that was
the case, because Casas came out of the kitchen
two hours later,
and told me that they were
going to close early.
The next morning I saw Clara behind the counter, still pale with fear, but with a smile that, although
drawn, was indelible.
"Just you, poor thing." The neighbors tried to console her when they found out, because
they knew of the dedication she had put into raising
money for the women who came to her
for help for years.
The sick women came from all over the city with their breasts
taken by cancer,
and some already mutilated
or without hope. The Casas had become the most influential family in the area,
and Clara had the idea of raising
money to help them with their treatment.
He organized fairs and quermeses, shows and popular
works in the street to benefit his small neighborhood foundation.
From that day on, the couple continued working
without showing any concern. He, with
his floured apron, peeked out of the kitchen door from time to time to greet someone. She continued smiling beatifically, as when one of her protégés came to complain
about her pain or to announce her death. Laura, however, was never told anything, and they only warned me:
-If Laurita asks you something... -Clara murmured in my ear. -You don't know anything, do you understand?
So I just watched.
At noon I saw Laura standing
on the opposite sidewalk. At that time he was leaving
school with his blue uniform and the books hugged to his chest. I looked
carefully towards the corner, where
my uncle Antonio
looked restless, perhaps
trying to look inside the business
from afar.
Then the two entered almost at the same time, but he, always in his impeccable black suit, stepped forward
to open the door for Laura.
-Thank you.-She said.
"I was waiting for you, I wanted to know if mom was coming today, I'm sure," she told me a few days later, when her suspicion was almost a certainty.
When they entered, I was surprised when Clara suddenly turned around to look at herself in the mirror behind
the cash register. She fixed her hair and dress, and only then greeted my uncle.
-Antonio, good morning. When does the barbershop open? -In a month, Clarita.
That bothered me, that unexpected confidence, obtained who knew when and in what way.
Laura heard it too, and must have immediately thought of her father. She stood there, staring abstractedly at the shelves with the freshly baked bread, but with her mind circling around
the figure of Casas.
"Dad was so close," he told me later, "just a few feet from his wife, but he didn't really know her."
Since that morning my uncle's visits became more frequent. The people of the
neighborhood began to murmur. Laura
avoided the women
gathered on the sidewalk, who always looked at her with an expression of unbearable pity.
My uncle Antonio was a strange
man. I had hardly seen him in my entire childhood, while he
participated in politics
and in his committee meetings
and campaign trips. Until he became
a councilor five years earlier,
and became inaccessible. Surrounded by tall,
fat men, with impeccable suits and always dirty mustaches, he carried his memorable 1942 revolver
under his left arm. That relic that he cleaned
every day, like a jewel
whose loss represented the loss of his own soul. He always said he had killed two men with it.
"Whoever insults me does not live to tell it." He shouted everywhere, in the committee, in the bar, on the street or in the ladies'
hair salon, where women demanded
his presence to listen to anecdotes and gossip about
their wives. the politicians.
At home I heard
that he was impoverished, after
losing his money
in bad investments. Now, he was back to open the barbershop two blocks
from the Casas' premises, but no one could say where
he got the money from.
He took to visiting us before dark,
at a time when the rains decreased and the cold became more intense.
Laura saw him arrive with his black overcoat and the same old suit.
"They're going to bury me in these clothes." He joked when he met Casas, and then they started talking.
Laura focused
her attention on perceiving the slightest sign of aggression, any word, act or
gesture that was the seed of an argument. But he especially wanted to highlight the tense expression on his mother's
face when the two men met. It was then that he noticed that Clara's appearance was different. He had lost a lot of weight and complained of not being hungry.
I, on the other
hand, looked at my uncle,
at his suit bulging under
the armpit due to the metallic mass, like a latent cancer on the left side. That weapon intrigued me and I feared it at the
same time.
For several
weeks nothing happened.
Clara went to the doctor every afternoon, and sometimes Laura accompanied her without going into the
office. She was nervous, and awkwardly picked up her bag. "He did the same thing at the hospital," Laura told me, "...it took him several
minutes to organize
the social work papers, and he immediately hid the doctor's prescription in his wallet." Laura stayed in the business
thinking something very bad was happening. In front of the register, he played with the keys.
Some customers arrived
and she attended
to them distractedly. It became dark over the square and the children soon left it. He went to turn on the front lights, and saw Antonio
crossing the street.
He looked from the
sidewalk, surely looking
for Clara. When he left,
Laura was sure he was going to see her. She
turned pale, and her whiteness increased as she faced the cold of the street.
"I'm coming out!" He warned me, and went after him.
He must have been thinking about his father,
about the silent and sometimes
indifferent man that Casas was most of the time, and he did not doubt that his loyalty was with him. The
mercury lights had already been turned on. Antonio entered
the house, she did so two
minutes later. He smelled the aroma of fried food from the kitchen, saw the striped
apron on his mother's skirt.
My uncle's arms were around his shoulders.
He didn't want to tell me what happened later. Laura was disturbed, her mind went from one thought
to another and she was distracted for a whole
week. He missed
school without warning and didn't want to explain
himself to anyone.
He stopped talking
to his mother, and even got
angry with me.
-You are the nephew, help me finish this.
"I don't like my uncle very much, Laura, but what are we going to do?" However, I knew by looking at her eyes that she was willing to do anything.
The day the barbershop opened there was music, food and lots of drinking.
People danced tangos to the rhythm
of an old record player,
garlands hung from the ceiling
and fans. A welcome
sign was taped
to the large mirror on the main wall. The place had been
completely remodeled, and I heard
people murmuring behind
Antonio's back, wondering how he had gotten the money.
We all went that night: friends
and enemies of my uncle, neighbors and political
opponents. The Casas
family was also there. Laura
had put on a short-skirted dress and her hair
was down. She smiled in a way similar to her mother,
to the dark and inaccessible expression that Clara had sometimes, when she was hiding something. Almost three hours
had passed and some were drunk and others
were already going to sleep.
Then the door suddenly opened, and we all looked at the police who came in, pushing the tables and knocking
over the cider
bottles, glasses, and empty cocktail
plates, which exploded on the
floor. The women screamed and some boys ran away.
-There are complaints against you.-Said one of the guys.
-I have all the papers in order, gentlemen.-And Antonio spread his documents on the
table dirty with the remains of cakes, with the aroma of beer and cider enveloping our noses in
a nauseating mist.
Two groups immediately formed,
one around the table with the police,
my uncle and his
friends; another with the rest of the neighbors who were whispering among themselves, and the
old women who were looking
for chairs to recover from the shock.
Clara went from one
side of the room to the other, arranging the tables with simulated but nervous indifference. Laura followed
her with the look of a vengeful woman, which contrasted with her fifteen-year-
old face. It occurred to me that perhaps she had been the one who made the anonymous call to the police,
who had been monitoring my uncle for a long time because
of his background, just waiting for an excuse to search him. But she never confessed it to me or wanted to admit it.
I heard the word "fraud" next to me, barely hinted at and murmured by the silent lips of the people in that smoke-filled place, in the middle of the dying atmosphere of an interrupted
party. "Whitewashing," said others. Embezzled money, countless sums,
definitions and terms too imprecise for my teenage mind.
-Name of the company?
-Asked one of the guys.
-"The Councilor" Hair Salon.
"Partners, sir, please," he insisted.
Antonio murmured, almost spelling, the only words necessary.
-Clara Palacios
de Casas-He said,
so softly that it could
not be heard beyond a few
centimeters from his mouth. But the air in the room announced it, condensing like an ice figure
among the garlands of the party.
-This lady has a foundation for the disabled, doesn't she? -Non-profit.-A voice interrupted from the distant
group, firm but not very convinced.
The inspector
looked for the origin of that voice among the people, took off his glasses
and
explored the tension, the dazed look of everyone present. Then Clara took a step forward.
Some wanted to defend her, but the police separated her from the group.
After a while in which they questioned both, the inspector
took his secretaries, and the police officers
left. We all stayed silent.
Casas remained in a corner,
absorbed in his thoughts
and destroying a plastic cup in his hands, now definitively isolated
from his wife.
Laura had gone from a state of vengeful
ecstasy to that of tragic astonishment, as she
observed her mother's indecisive movements in the midst of that accusing crowd.
Because people
were already beginning to leave without
greeting her, avoiding
the almost imploring look of Casas's
wife. Then, when no one was looking
at her anymore, Clara ran towards
Antonio. With all the mature
beauty that had distinguished her among the other
women in the neighborhood, her graying hair and previously straight back, she pounced on him
and put her hand between
his jacket and his shirt.
Immediately we heard
the shot.
Clara remained
motionless over the body of my uncle,
who held her in his arms. We watched the blood flow slowly, staining the dress like blotting paper. And the stain became wider than the wound, but not as big or as deep as the pain in Laura's
eyes.
THE PHARMACIST
Gustavo
Valverde's pharmacy was on a corner facing the square. My family lived next
door, only separated by a vacant lot, so it was inevitable that I would
take care of my mother the day I was born. Many years later I became ill for several months,
and he came to give me
injections every week. His kind voice meant that I never felt pain from the punctures, and I grew to love him. I grew up seeing
the small, dark-colored medicine bottles, and it was impossible for me not to associate their figure with that peculiar
aroma. I liked
watching him work, moving
from one place to another
behind the display
cases and the counter, always wearing his light blue overalls. No certificate hung on the walls proving
his profession, but no
one in the neighborhood ever doubted his knowledge.
When I entered the pharmacy two weeks before his final departure, I was arguing with the owner of the store. He lived there
for thirty years,
he was very young when he first opened his business, but the building
was never his. The owner came every two months to collect
the rent. I was surprised to see Valverde's eyes wide open and teary, as if he had never been
spoken to that way in his life. I managed to hear that the woman was going to sell the store and
wanted her to leave before
the end of the month.
I stepped aside for her to come out. I heard the door bells ring, while he remained still for a few seconds.
When he saw me he told me to come closer, but he didn't mention anything about what had happened.
I looked into his green eyes, thinking
about what he would be like
with women. I knew he had been married at one time,
but he never talked to me about
it. He was tall,
with brown hair combed back,
and I think he was still attractive to the ladies
in the neighborhood, at least that's what they said when they met at the hair salon.
"Are you still sure what you're
going to do, Santiago?" He asked suddenly, and I blushed.
-Yes sir. I'm asking
you because you're
the only one I can talk to about this.
My friends...you know. If I go another year without sleeping with a girl I'm going to become the school idiot. You understand, right? -Yes do not worry. But what about her? -You already know. She's not sure but I hope to clear her doubts tonight.
At that time, I saw him as so serious that I wanted
to be like him when I was his age. The
way in which Valverde influenced my life was something that only became
aware of me at
this time, when I was discovering new things. He took the keys out of a drawer, and gave
them to me with the warning to only open his room.
He hesitated a little before
releasing them. I pulled them gently, and when he left them in my hands, he repeated that it would only be for one night.
Mom once told me that he had settled in the city with his wife, upon arriving
from his hometown. According to my mother,
she was beautiful, but not as attractive as Valverde. The girl didn't talk much, staying
most of the time in her room.
The marriage lasted a few months. She left for her town one day and did not return. Some time later it was learned
that he had died at the same time, but he never mentioned it until someone
could get him to
talk about himself. Then he said what he would
later repeat with some frequency when he went to the
bar on Saturday nights.
-The only way to save life is to stop it a moment before death, before decomposition.- And his breath did not have the aroma of alcohol,
even if he had drunk, but the rancid smell of old
flowers in cemeteries.
Not much more could be learned
from him. My parents remembered that the woman seemed sick before she left, because they heard her vomiting frequently from the bathroom
of the house when they went to buy something at the pharmacy. Valverde then made a
gesture of sad resignation, while
he dispatched his orders. But from the hallway behind
the counter, a penetrating aroma similar to dried fruit filled the air between the walls full of shelves
and display cases.
At night I went to look for Lidia at her house. When it was ten twenty the bus passed by, with its usual regularity. The lights of the square illuminated the paths, and opened spaces in the darkness.
We stopped at a corner,
while I played with the keys in my pocket.
We entered
the pharmacy and I closed
the door. We crossed the premises to the back, where a narrow passage led to the
rooms. I saw Valverde's room and beyond it a small kitchen.
Lidia asked me to wait a few minutes
in the hallway before entering.
I toured the rest of the house meanwhile, and discovered a room next to the previous one and another
at the end of the corridor. I went there,
but it was closed. I then tried
the previous one, and when I
opened it I couldn't go back.
A desk occupied the center, covered
with papers and thick-spined books.
To one side I saw a common
but dirty sink full of curved scissors, tweezers of different sizes and scalpel
blades. Some bottles around the taps smelled
of detergents and antiseptics. I discovered all this
little by little,
as I recovered from my astonishment and my eyes became accustomed to the darkness. On the walls
there were paintings with drawings of human figures
that seemed alive and dead at the same time, showing
their detached muscles
in a serene and impossible walk. I stumbled to the other side of the room, where the wall was filled with shelves filled with jars. Most contained fetuses immersed in formaldehyde. Some were intact,
others destroyed or dissected, but none of the containers bore the date or name.
I stayed for several minutes looking at that chilling exhibition of dead children, their shapeless faces and swollen bodies.
By accident I hit a tin plate, and the noise woke me up from my abstraction.
I remembered Lidia and returned to the next room. We did what was our intention from the beginning. She was upset and scared,
and I felt too clumsy,
because I couldn't
stop thinking about what I had discovered.
A week later I found Lidia
near her house.
We had not met again
by mutual agreement. We chatted
for a while, she was calmer, and we promised to talk to each other on the phone.
I went to see Mr. Valverde, whom I have not seen since that night. The day after
using his house, I left the keys in the mailbox
very early in the morning. I didn't know how to talk to him, he
wasn't the same guy as before to me.
When he saw me he didn't want to greet me. At first, he began to speak slowly, as if
holding back his anger, until after a while he burst into a rage that I regret having provoked.
-I'm leaving
in a few weeks, and all you can think
of is throwing the keys at me like a stranger! -I just felt embarrassed, I didn't know what to say... He stopped what he was doing,
and leaning on the counter
smiled at me in a way that suggested the most obscene
question. "Didn't I tell you to open nothing
but my room?" He told me with a contained tone of fury.
I felt the blood turn red on my face, and my hands were sweating.
I asked him about the rent,
to change the subject. He ignored me and continued talking about the jars. He mentioned the doctors he had met, and told me about
his love of research. He also said, with
an expression of enormous sadness,
as if the failure of humanity fell on him, that none of all that
knowledge was of any use to him now. The only thing
he had been able to verify
throughout all those
years was a slower, but inevitable, decomposition of the body.
Then I spoke, making
the last and most serious
mistake.
-Doesn't it make your stomach turn to do that?
Valverde looked at the door, then at me, and with a speed that I couldn't react to, he took the palm of my right hand and made a cut from one end to the other. I don't know where the knife
came from, I only saw its reflection when it was too late and the pain appeared
several seconds later.
I was screaming like crazy, but no one came through
that door. My parents were working
and the neighbors were taking
their imperturbable nap. He himself
later covered me with
some bandages that turned red quickly, and he changed
them again. I saw a mixture of blood
and shapeless flesh on my palm, and before bandaging me again he said:
-This is the only thing we are.
It was the last I heard
from him.
The following
week I stayed at home without going
out. Dr. Ruiz did his best for me, and I
decided not to tell the truth. I was afraid of Valverde. I lived next to him, and every night I feared hearing
his threats from the formaldehyde-smelling room.
Exactly seven
days later I found Lidia,
who was attentive and concerned about
my injury. As we were returning
home we saw a truck and a police car. I assumed
that they were coming
to evict Valverde and I wanted to cross to divert us from the place. Lidia was excited
to see the patrol car and insisted on staying. We heard a woman scream from inside the pharmacy, and the old owner
ran out. She leaned against
a tree on the sidewalk
and cried agitatedly while other women came to help
her.
At that moment I saw Valverde
leave with handcuffs on, guarded by two officers
who put him in the car.
People murmured in amazement.
The patrolman left and they immediately began to take out the bottles, hidden by white covers.
My parents
were there too. Mom entered
the store, curious,
and I followed her. She managed to avoid a police officer
who wanted to arrest her, and I saw her bump into two men who
were coming from the back carrying a stretcher. I didn't have time to wonder what that
was, because Dad grabbed my mother's arm and she, scared, uncovered
part of the sheet that covered the body. The corpse - impeccably dissected, submerged until minutes
before in the formaldehyde that was now dripping on the black and white mosaics - of Valverde's wife.
I remembered the closed room at the end of the hallway, and what I had been told about those who die of cyanide
poisoning with the scent of bitter almonds
in their mouths.
I saw Lidia dusting
off her arms and dress,
and she looked
at me with contempt while still
cleaning the dirt that only she could see. Then he ran away.
I stood at the door of the pharmacy
that I visited almost every day of my life, crossed
since then by a judicial strip. I looked at my injured hand, useless forever, with the severed
tendons that Dr. Ruiz could
no longer attach.
My dead hand.
MAX
I don't know what she was thinking at that moment,
maybe about the trip she was going to take two weeks later. The truth is that I
crossed the street halfway down the block, and I didn't see the truck. The
midday sun after lunch lulled me to sleep, perhaps also the fleeting awareness
of my happiness.
But I
heard the engine just an instant before I saw it next to me, and then I felt
the push from behind. A blow not from steel, but from another body that threw
me to the opposite sidewalk, saving me from death.
I remember
hearing barking, almost hysterical howling from the patio of that old house
where there were always abandoned dogs. However, it was so common to see them
there that I ignored them that morning.
Lying on
the cold sidewalk, with my palms red from hitting the tiles and my lower lip
bloody, I felt the dog's caresses. The same one who had warned me of the danger
with his bark, and he jumped over the fence, throwing himself at me just before
the truck crushed me.
He was a
mixed breed animal, large in size but still with the appearance and habits of a
puppy. Resembling a Doberman, he had short, very black hair.
"My
God, Gabriel!" shouted Juana, who came running from the corner where we were
going to meet.
Juana
Santos was the daughter of the bar owner and my girlfriend since childhood. The
day I turned eighteen, dad let me use my uncle Jorge's Torino, who had died a
few months before. Then she had the idea of the trip, and as always when those
plans occurred to her, she hung around my neck, insisting until she convinced
me.
Now she
was doing the same, but sitting on the sidewalk, hugging me and getting the
blood on my face. The truck driver got out and wanted to help me.
"Oh, my God, forgive me kid, forgive
me!" He said with nervous hands.
People
gathered around us, forming a compact group within which the dog was a
clearing, a free space that everyone respected, as if it were a beast to be
venerated. A wild and noble animal at the same time.
"That
dog saved me," I murmured after the fear left me, when I was finally able
to speak.
Everyone
looked at him again with more attention, and Juana held him by the old leash
that someone had once put on him. Then the animal came to lick my face, and I
hugged him and Juana, with my arms still shaking.
"We're going to call him Max," she said, and later she told me
an English legend that she had once read in her history class. She didn't know
why she felt so moved when she heard it, told by the professor, nor the reason
why for months afterwards she dedicated herself to searching for it in all the
books and libraries. Now, this legend returned to her memory.
A medieval
king had a dog that accompanied him in all battles. It was a huge animal,
ferocious towards strangers and owner of eyes so black that the devil himself
seemed to take over him when he went out onto the battlefield. One day the king
lost his sword in the middle of a fight, and an enemy began to ride towards him
to impale him with his sword. Then the dog jumped at the other and ripped off
his hand.
-That
greyhound was called Maximilian.- Juana finished telling me.
-Come,
Max.- I called him, and she responded, looking up, with her ears lowered. She
started running around as if she were hearing his name again after many
centuries.
After this
we had no choice but to take him on our trip. We confirmed the rental of the
beach house, and the next morning we loaded the suitcases into the car. Max was
in the back seat, and Juana was sitting next to me. That day I noticed that
both of them expressed a mutual resentment, still slight and subtle. She tried
hard to please him, caressing him and feeding him in her mouth. But Max was
behaving more and more strangely. Especially when she would lean on my shoulder
and pour me coffee by resting the thermos on the glove compartment. She would
turn to look at him and he would growl at her, showing his teeth, always
sitting like an imperturbable statue.
"Do I
have to put up with a dog's jealousy?" She said irritably, but a moment
later we were laughing together, a fresh laugh in the middle of the heat of the
road.
“What more
could I ask for?” I thought, opening the sunroof so that the sea breeze and the
smell of the sand from the first dunes renewed the air inside the car. “I have
a beautiful girl, a nice car and a great dog.” Then I put my right arm on
Juana's shoulders, and she fell asleep while she watched the sun hide behind
the dunes.
The next
day we were on the beach, lying on the sand. Juana and I next to each other,
and Max sitting looking around, expectant. He sniffed out odors indiscernible
to us, pointing his snout toward the north or south, as if the wind carried
signs of unimaginable threats. It occurred to me that that dog of legend must
have the same ancient cunning of perceiving the distant sounds and smells of
the enemies, who rode through the dust raised by the horses, with the green
banners of their heraldry and their swords raised. I imagined a huge group of
armed knights coming towards us along the beach, while the horse tracks in the
wet sand were erased by the waves.
I noticed
that she was also paying attention to what Max was doing. The sun wonderfully
tanned Juana's body, covered only by a green bikini. She really liked this
color, her dresses, her blouses and her shoes always had a touch, even a small
one, of some shade of green.
-Tell me
more about that legend.-I asked him.
She began
to tell me that Maximilian was a descendant of the finest breed of dogs bred by
the nobility of that time.
-That's
why he lived with the kings, and slept in the same room.- He continued telling
me.- The queen was pregnant during the period of the battle in which the dog
saved the king's life. He protected them better than any army. He was able to
perceive danger from miles away. Once, they say, a tornado tore through the
region, and Maximilian was restless for three days before the storm hit. Then
the prince was born...- Juana interrupted herself.-...The sun is burning your
back...- he told me, and got up to rub suntan lotion on my shoulders.
I don't
know what move she made, or how Max reacted. I only heard the scream under the
exacerbated light of midday, like a queen threatened by the bleeding wound on
her left ankle. The amazing heaviness of the sun did not let me wake up completely,
and suddenly I saw Max attacking Juana, biting her foot while she screamed.
"Stop
it!" I yelled at her, and she obeyed immediately.
-You son
of a bitch.
-It's not
very serious.-I wanted to console her.
"But
what's wrong with that animal?" She insisted, jumping on one foot to
return home. We watch him stay next to our bags, watching like an unbribable
soldier.
-He
thought you were hurting me...
In the
afternoon we went to the doctor. He treated the wound and prescribed a vaccine
and antibiotics.
That night
he complained of pain for several hours, only managing to rest after taking
some sedatives. Max watched her from the rug she slept on next to our bed. Her
eyes glowed in the darkness, but he never once reached out to comfort her, like
he had done with me the day of the accident.
The wound
on Juana's ankle grew. She believed that the sun and sea water were going to
cure her and she did not want to see the doctor anymore. She took the remedies,
but even without pain, her wound turned into a growing ulcer.
One
afternoon we went too far from the city. We drove near the San Antonio
lighthouse, surrounded by miles of sand on one side and the cold, merciless sea
on the other. A still distant rain had begun to fall on the water. A fishing
boat was turning on its lights.
-It's
already late, Juana. Let's go back home.-I realized that she was sleeping. I
touched her cheek and noticed that she was feverish. Suddenly, she woke up and
said she had had a nightmare.
The fever
revived her little obsession with that English story. She liked to repeat what
her teacher had taught her: that history never repeats itself. Sometimes only
an element that cannot be grasped by understanding persists, and that usually
survives in irrational beings like a stigma.
-Do you
remember the legend of the king and his dog? Suddenly I remembered how it
ended. It seems that when the queen gave birth, her husband was not in the
castle. Her servants attended to her as best they could, but the doctor took
too long to arrive. The birth was complicated. They sent a servant to look for
the king, but he had traveled too far to return in time. The queen was alone
and she had her son assisted by her teenage maid. The candles illuminated the
baby in the crib next to her mother. The maid felt so happy that she barely
covered it with a green apron that she was wearing over her, and she went to
announce the new news to the others, leaving them alone. But. In the middle of
the darkness, in a corner of the room, was Maximilian.
Juana
fainted. I was so scared that I picked her up in her arms and carried her to
the car immediately. However, the car would not start. That morning I forgot to
fill the gas tank.
-Come on
Max, we have to walk until we find help.
I picked
up Juana, who was already awake and was still delirious and sweating with
fever. The sky was completely cloudy and I had chills. Max's footsteps on the
sand were slow and steady, as if he wanted to follow me but didn't want to
rush.
-Give him
dog, son of a bitch! You were to blame for all this.
Then he
ran towards me, and without hurting me, bit the heel of the shoe. I tried to
kick him, but as soon as he broke away, he gained momentum and grabbed me again
without hurting me. I don't know how many meters cam
iné in that situation, but there were very few. My skin was burning and
dry from the sun of those days, the sea breeze gave me chills and I had not
brought a coat.
Max took away my strength
with every step, he exhausted me. My girlfriend's body was slipping from my
arms. Until I saw a truck in the distance, with the lifeguard's badge on the
door. I signaled to her and she responded by turning on the headlights. When he
came to look for me, Max didn't approach him, limiting himself to threatening
him from a distance, growling at him. I left Juana on the back and lay down
next to her, while the wobble of the jeep over the dunes rocked us as if in an
insensitive death. Max followed behind us.
"He killed the
baby," she said in a fleeting moment of lucidity, awakening her
deep-rooted consciousness of her in the past.
-Who, the queen did that? -
I asked him.
-No, no.- She answered.- The
one who was waiting in the shadows pounced on the child as if he were the
enemy, a threat to the power of his king, and she devoured him.
Juana was hospitalized for
three days, and she died one morning. Her father had come to see her, but I
didn't stay to wait for him. That same night I fled with Max to the beach.
-Come.-I called him.
When he approached I kicked
him. He just howled. I kicked him in the ribs again, and he stayed still. I
stoned him and ran away, but he followed me, looking like a demon and a
protective angel at the same time. Then, approaching in pain, he began to lick
my bare feet.
CABINET
Laura
unbuttoned the second button on her blouse when she saw Tomás, who was getting off the bus at the corner of the square.
He had his everyday blue suit, worn at the knees
and with two pitons on his elbows.
The collar of his white
shirt was open,
and the newspaper was rolled up under his left arm. This time he came without that smile that was
always on his lips when he went to visit
her. His eyes shone when he thought
of Laura. But now it wasn't like that, there was something different on his face, perhaps very similar to an expression
of irreflotable sinking.
Upon
entering he went directly towards her, surrounded by the aroma of bread and bills.
The door bell went off calmly.
"Duke died last night," he said in that abrupt silence of five in the afternoon.
"For God's sake,
dear!" Laura answered, hugging him over the counter.
The silk blouse waved with her labored
breathing, pressed against
Tomás' chest, wetting
his neck with her
tears.
-How old were you, thirteen, fourteen...? -Seventeen years. He was my best friend all that time.
They decided to go to the bar to talk.
"Dad, I'm coming out!" Laura shouted towards the kitchen, and her father must have heard her but he didn't answer.
In the candy store they sat near the window, holding hands. The waiter placed two coffees between his trembling arms.
She had seen Duque three
days before. That old dog was big. A German
shepherd mix that still jumped and licked her face when she saw her. Standing
on two legs, he prevented
him from making his way through the narrow hallway
of Tomás' house. He lived alone with his dog, in those small, closed rooms all day, with humidity and dust covering the furniture,
and a smell of putrid acidity coming from somewhere.
-I eat outside, I don't feel like cooking when I get back from work.-He had once said.
That's when she offered
to cook for him. I went almost every night to make him
something simple and hot. Then she prepared
the bed for him, the clean sheets
on which they would lie together.
She always
felt watched by Duque, still
and silent until
Tomás returned at nine at night.
Upon
arrival, he opened the garden door for her, while Laura watched them play, sitting under the oak tree, with the lights of the city rising towards the twilight sky. The pale moon was growing, and Duque howled.
-He barks
at the moon every night
since I've known
him. If he's not outside,
he gets desperate scratching the doors, like when he sits next to the closet and I can't
get him out of
there.-Laura complained many times.
Tomás then looked at her with suspicion.
-It's your closet, Laura.
Duque has his things there.
She had often gone through the furniture looking
for something, but always when the dog was away. Otherwise it would stand in front of him, alert, with an expectant growl, stealthy
and protective, watching
the varnished and polished wooden doors. The Venetian-style legs and
antique façade contrasted with the simplicity of the hallway.
Because the closet was
there, in the middle of the passage,
getting in the way so that you had to squeeze against
the other wall to get through.
"Why don't we put it in your room?" He asked.
-No, I don't want you to touch anything.
She stared for a long time at that huge closet, impossible to move. Full of old things, the dishes that Tomás used to feed Duque, the towels to bathe him, the soap, the straps from when
he was a puppy, and the slippers
eaten away by his precocious teeth.
"He died without bothering me, poor old Duke," he said in the humid afternoon at the bar, while they watched the kids coming out of school pass
by on the sidewalk. "When he remained stiff on the carpet, I remembered his strength, his jaws." ferocious from some time ago.
I told you how he defended me, right?
In reality,
Laura was already
tired of hearing
that story. Everyone
in the neighborhood knew how Duque protected him the day his parents
argued, and the way the old woman fell,
hitting her head. They said that the old man pushed her, and then he wanted to do the same with
Tomás. He was then a boy of twelve years old. An apathetic and sad child who hid from
others, fleeing with his dog from his parents' arguments.
-We would go to the train tracks, and we would stay there until nine at night, when dad would go to work as a night watchman at the factory. I counted the trains one by one, waiting
for the one that would
take him away until the next day.
Tomás, sitting on the tracks, entertained himself by watching Duque, who was barking at the locomotives, slow as mastodons. For the dog perhaps they were monsters, primitive animals or wild beasts.
She started
rubbing Laura's legs with her shoes under the table. She looked around,
blushing.
-Let's go home, Laura. I'm tired and alone.
She accepted
and they went out to the streets
of La Plata, covered by the shadows
of the houses in the evening.
It was almost seven.
When they arrived they turned on the lights,
but there was no one to welcome
them this time, no barking,
no happy jumping, no muddy paws. Only Duque's scent lingered, his smell of wet hair and fresh
grass. Its smell
everywhere, and that closet always
there, bothering. Being an absurd obstacle now.
Laura made the initial gesture of trying to push him, and Tomás screamed.
-No, no! -He stopped for a moment when he realized her reaction. -They are his things and I don't want to take them out for a few days.
Laura asked him where he had buried it, and he took her to the garden to show her the mound of disturbed earth.
They ate little, some fried eggs whose oil helped hide the phantom
aroma. But Tomás missed the breadcrumbs he gave to the dog, sitting next to him, looking at him like a beggar.
At nine o'clock
Tomás said he heard something, but she only heard the train horn in the distance. He insisted that the sound
came from the garden, echoing
off the high ceilings of the house, hidden in the shadows.
-It's Duke's howl, I'm sure.
Tomás always
told how Duque
lunged at his father that last night.
He was about to go to
work when his mother thought of annoying him by asking him for money.
-The fights were always about the same thing. They seemed like irreconcilable partners in a bankrupt business.
She didn't remember exactly how it happened, but they started hitting each other and she collapsed on the kitchen floor. The floor was suddenly
covered in blood, and the old man looked desperate. He grabbed Tomás
very hard, so much so that the boy thought he was going to kill him.
-Maybe, maybe he just hugged me very tightly, I don't know.
Then Duque threw himself
on top of the old man and bit him until he was disfigured. Only months later did it become
known that the man had been taken
to prison. Thomas
said so, and everyone
accepted it. The old man was never
seen since that time.
In
the morning Laura accompanied him to the bus stop. It was cold, she was wearing
a light blue shawl and he was wearing
an overcoat. When she saw him walk away, she returned
to her father's bakery. The next weekend
was Easter, and the chocolate eggs looked beautiful in the stained glass windows decorated
with European figures.
The aroma came out the door,
a bitter and hot smell.
-Dad.-It occurred
to him to ask.-Do you know of any neighbors
who have puppies
to give away? And with that idea in mind he searched the neighborhood all afternoon. Until in the vacant lot of the Cortéz house
he found two small, newborn
dogs. He grabbed
one and took it
to Tomás' house. It was still early.
She made dinner
and let the dog run around. He opened
the garden door for him, separating him from Duque's
grave. I didn't
know what to call him, I
was going to leave that to him.
-Dog, dog, come in!-The puppy obeyed her quickly.
They tripped in the hallway over the closet, always in the middle of the step. Laura looked through it, seeing what she could get out to move it. Just old blankets, cans of food, and
Duque's silly things, his leashes
and muzzle. The puppy sniffed
the furniture with intense
curiosity, crawled under
it and scratched the wall.
It was half past eight, and Tomás did not arrive.
I didn't know what to do and I was hungry. He started thinking about where to put the closet. The puppy kept scratching the wall.
"It hasn't been cleaned
in so long, there must be dead rats," Laura thought, and decided
to
empty it. He took everything out, even the shelves to make it lighter. He put force and little
by little he gave way. Paw marks
had made a hole in the flexiplast floor, and he saw two scratches on each side,
as if someone had moved
the furniture regularly.
Running it slowly inch by inch, with a lot of effort, and amidst the barking of the dog that
was
jumping excitedly around him, he discovered a simple, unpainted door. The puppy barked
more and more madly, and pushed the door, which,
without a key, opened with a creak
of hinges. An abrupt
smell of dirt and fermentation made his stomach
turn and he covered his mouth. At first the darkness hid the shapes
from him, but then he saw the bed and the walls without openings. The only window
was covered by bricks.
There was someone there.
You could hear his weak but hoarse
breathing, and the acidic
breath that filled the air. He was a deformed
fat man, surrounded by dirty sheets,
and there were several plates piled up on the side of the bed. Laura got closer without really knowing if what
she felt was fear or perhaps a slight fear tinged with pity. The dog, however,
this time stayed at the door.
The horn of the nine o'clock train
was heard distant
and attenuated by those
walls.
The man said something unintelligible, as if he had not spoken
in many years
and did not know
if he still had a voice. His neck was deformed by scars, his face was indistinct, and it
seemed to Laura that one of his eye sockets was empty.
The dog continued barking, and the plaintive voice of the abandoned old man was reborn, now clearer but hesitant.
"Another... dog," he murmured, perhaps missing the bark of his dead jailer.
A light suddenly illuminated the room from the hallway.
He saw Tomás running towards the patio, and he went after
him. The horn of the nine o'clock
train sounded again,
wet and heavy, like the sound of a hunting horn through the night dew. Then Laura stopped at the
kitchen door, frightened, watching him abruptly take off his shirt, and with a shovel shining in the
moonlight, dig his dog's grave.
THE TRAIN TO BUENOS AIRES
The train
left the station
before La Plata,
and I packed our suitcases so we could
get off at the next one. Juan was still silent and sad. I thought
until that moment that the cause was the irreconcilable separation from his wife. In reality, I always had to imagine more than what he told me, and that's why I was often wrong
about the real reason. He had the habit of hiding
his desires or moods until the exact moment when something led him to communicate them, then it was no longer possible
to contradict him. That was the way he asked our boss, almost
demanding him, to assign us this city.
I asked him the reason,
and he said he had to visit someone. His parents had insisted
on hosting us at their house, and without being too enthusiastic about
the idea, he agreed so as not to argue.
I offered
him a cigarette, but he refused. The open windows
let the wind travel through the car with signs of the imminent summer, the leaves torn from the trees near the tracks and the smell of the factories, confused
with the aroma of the tracks warmed by the sun. I decided
to break the silence with an anecdote
that might cheer him up a little.
-I don't think I ever mentioned it to you. The first time I made love to a girl was on a train. - I looked at him out of the corner of my eye, exhaling the smoke towards
the other side.
He looked at me with a painful smile of complacency.
-It happened on the trip to Buenos Aires...-I insisted-...when we moved. I knew the girl from the neighborhood, but it was only on that train when she seduced me.
I had not been able to escape that memory, and I had the need to tell him. However,
he seemed to be listening to me with the indifference of someone who already knows
everything
beforehand, even though I was sure I had not told him before.
Sometimes I was exasperated
by his manner, and I muttered a bad word in his sick ear. It was a way to get rid of that sad feeling that seeing him like that
caused me.
I closed
the suitcases after
a quick inspection of the samples,
and discovered the shiny
beads of sweat on Juan's
forehead. We arrived
at the station, my gaze was fixed
on two figures standing, among many others,
in the middle of the platform. The parents were not as old
as I first imagined, but stronger and somehow almost
invulnerable. That was the first word that came to mind when I saw them for the first
time. I remembered his story about
the day he lost hearing on his left side. The father was drunk and beat him until he was deaf.
He told me, in one of the few times I was able to make him speak
at length, the blood and pain in his
head, the rush to the hospital and the inexorable result. He was eight or nine years old,
and suddenly he found himself
with the abysmal
obligation to accept
that there would
be many sounds in the world that he would never hear.
The station
was not much changed from how I knew it a few years before.
Only the signs, fresh paint and slot machines changed
it up a bit. When we got off, they greeted each other
without signs of affection, and the same introversion that characterized my friend also lived
in them. It was easy to see it in their normal
faces with the naked eye, but dry, raw, surely incredulous. Juan once described
them as disillusioned children.
We drove through part of the center in her father's car, while she pointed out to us, from the front seat,
the changes in the city.
I talked about
our work, that I also grew up in that neighborhood, and yet, we only met much later in Buenos Aires.
Juan, with the suitcase
on his legs, continued in silence, tremblingly clasping his hands when his wife was named without mentioning the separation. I realized that I hadn't told them anything, and I noticed
their look of extreme fear for what they would
think when they found
out. He was a man of apparent
indecision, but his inner life surpassed that of any of us.
While he was doing what others expected of him, another
idea was growing
inside him at the same time, to be expressed later in an unexpected way, like an explosion. That's how he planned the separation, it seems to me. He searched for it with small and large discussions, until he found it.
He always had something
else on his mind, which he wouldn't
even reveal to me.
"I told my son hundreds
of times that the life of a traveling salesman
loses the
advantages of a stable family." His mother told me with a tone of undeniable reproach, without even looking at him, as if Juan were not present. "But he insisted. In leaving home, even after getting married
he liked to spend more time outside
than with his wife.
-It's not that, mom. I like to travel, one thing has nothing to do with the other...-He answered, with the repeated words of someone trying to excuse himself for the hundredth time. The father then intervened for the first time in the conversation.
-If you can't do everything at the same time, you have to choose, especially after having finally
found the right woman... The three suddenly fell silent, and I didn't want to interrupt the silence. The streets became wider as we moved away from the center,
accompanied by the monotonous sound of wheels on the
cobblestones and the barking of dogs from the front yards. I know that Juan was the only one who couldn't do it, and I thought
about that strange world in which he lived. Partial
sounds, arbitrarily selected
by the only ear that remained
healthy.
When we arrived at the house,
we saw the letter from his wife leaning edge on a vase,
with the postmark from several days before.
It was there, exposed with deliberate intention, as if Juan's soul were exposed,
dry, on that table.
As
they took me to my room, I observed how austere the house was. The windows remained
closed, even at that time of day, keeping the old and scarce furniture in shadow. As I was getting
ready for a shower, I heard the family arguing
in the living room. Later,
I talked to his
mother, or rather
she talked to me non-stop, while putting Juan's
clothes in the closet, as
if he were still a child. His high-sounding voice went from one side of the room to the other without pause. The artificial light of a weak lamp on her old dress
and the gray streaking her dark
brown hair made her small
and elusive, similar
to an agile and uncatchable rat.
She called
her husband several
times to talk to me. When she received an answer she looked at me, fearing
that she had discovered the obvious, that her husband's voice sounded drunk.
During the following week, we divided up the businesses in the area to begin work.
Juan returned
with his suitcases intact, but also with a new expression illuminating his
face. I would leave the samples on the bed, and we would go have a coffee or walk the streets.
We looked for the places we had known separately in our childhood. He was happy about
something he didn't dare tell me, but I couldn't
get anything out of that stubborn head.
I imagined it was a woman.
Almost ten days later, we completed
our tour, and since I didn't have much to do, I suggested accompanying him to speed up his sales. He rejected
me. I didn't take it the wrong
way because I knew he was hiding someone, so one afternoon
I decided to see where he was going. This time I felt reconciled with Juan, his attitude was easy for me to understand, closer
to human modesty than his usual reserve and distrust.
It was three in the afternoon and the heat was more than bearable. I followed him several blocks, leaving the commercial area. He turned along a diagonal and stopped in front of a
house, neighboring an empty lot on one side and several ground-floor apartments on the other. The house was very old, remodeled in some parts,
with a hybrid and grotesque appearance. It had a front garden with well-kept
grass, and Juan crossed the path to the front
door.
The neighborhood was quite changed,
although still recognizable and similar to the one I
left when I was fifteen.
No one opened the door for him, he did it himself
with a key that he took
out of the pocket of his brown
jacket. Before I saw him disappear, I discovered the shine
of his glasses with the reflection of the sun that fell fully on the house,
and the door closed.
Afterwards there was only silence,
some tired and empty buses
completing their route,
and the suffocating vapor of the heat that surrounded me. I went to a bar on the opposite sidewalk to wait, and among those
wooden tables covered
with small brown
tiles, stirring the sugar in my cup of coffee,
I remembered what I thought
I had forgotten. I looked carefully at the house, its façade so modified by deterioration that I had almost confused it with any other of the several that remained from that time. But I finally recognized it as the permanent
object of conversations with my friends during high school days.
Lidia was only a year older than us, and her peculiar beauty attracted us without being
able to avoid it. Around him a succession of true comments
and other invented
ones were woven, in which dirty words were mixed that we pronounced
for the sole reason of feeling like men. We saw her almost every afternoon after school, and since she didn't avoid us, we considered it an incitement. He never accelerated his steps when he saw us behind
him, although we very rarely spoke
to him. His adult gaze,
perhaps resigned, fascinated and inhibited us at the same time. We only knew about her that she lived with her mother,
an old invalid who once made a living telling the future for a clientele
that decreased over time. Now it was Lidia who practically supported
her, cleaning houses or taking care of children in the
afternoons.
But I don't know for what reason, perhaps
because of the absurd need to transform the lives of others,
no one believed her, and since then they said that they saw her go out with
men, or that she even took them to her house.
I remembered our escapades to spy on her at night, and the dreams
that made me sweat
so many times.
All that until
that day when I took the train
to Buenos Aires.
I said goodbye to my friends,
promising to write, then I saw her in the same carriage. After a while, I sat next to him and he told me that he was going to look for a job.
"I had to leave school, but it doesn't matter," he said, shrugging his shoulders charmingly.
She told me about
her life with an air of extreme
seduction, inevitable in her. That message that she sent to us kids at school, strange
and attractive, as impossible to ignore as it was for her to make it known with her body and her impeccable beauty.
Then I couldn't control myself anymore, I kissed her and she didn't reject me. We went to the medical car and made love,
afraid, afraid that someone would
discover us, and as quickly
as we could to return to our seats
and behave like strangers for the rest of the trip.
I never
heard from Lidia
again. Now maybe
someone different lived
in that house,
and Juan visited her. I spent
several hours waiting
to see him come out, but I got tired
of waiting. At night, we had started eating when he arrived.
The mother served herbal tea which she said was good for digestion. I was happy to see him, to recognize the new smile that renewed
the acrid feeling of confinement in that dining
room with closed
blinds, with tall,
antique lamps, with ceilings
peeling from humidity, where the table
was as heavy and large
as the cynical grimace of old.
They looked
at him with such disapproval that he didn't
dare sit down and I had to return
to my chair as soon as I got up to greet him.
-I imagine you already had dinner at the whore's house... -Said the father.
The old woman stood next to her husband, lifting the dirty dishes, staring sullenly at her son. A small, irritating hiss came from his lips, between his false teeth.
Juan leaned on the back of one of the chairs,
carved with figures
in the shape of ebony flowers. His glasses bothered
him, and he took them off. He wiped them with his handkerchief, slowly, while he spoke.
"Eduardo doesn't have to put up with our problems..." He said quietly, looking at me, but I didn't feel offended, but rather covered
by a mantle of protection.
-Your friend
has to know that you separated to return with a whore...
and a thousand times a whore! The father's
voice rose above the table like a wind capable
of sweeping away the entire rigid structure of the house. The woman looked at him, scared, without letting the plates that were shaking
in her hands fall. The old man's hand had been raised with a clenched fist, but it stopped high above his head. Juan looked at the center of the tablecloth,
but there was no bottle of wine. She knew, however, that her mother was responsible for hiding
her when they had guests.
I heard
the clinking of cutlery and the explosion of Juan's glasses,
although I don't
think he realized it, not even when he put the handkerchief with broken glass back in his pocket. He left his glasses on the table and approached his father. I didn't expect that, I never suspected that he was going
to do it. He grabbed
him by the collar of his shirt,
made a face of disgust
at the rancid aroma
of the old man's breath,
and shaking him like a doll, threw
him to the floor. I don't
know if the other one defended himself,
he seemed strong
but maybe he decided to play
the role of victim. His eyes did not stimulate pity.
I went to my friend to stop him, but he had already
knelt with the father's body between
his legs, and was still
shaking him by his clothes.
The mother had disappeared, only to return a
few minutes later
with a box of shoes,
which she threw
on us. Papers, old documents, notebooks and photos, were scattered around us. They covered part of her husband's chest, agitated but not afraid.
The old man's
mustache was sweating, his lips moved
several times over his teeth, dirty
with the tiny remains of meat from dinner.
Juan did not want to open his fists, nor get up from his side. He didn't speak to him, he just
held him as if there
was still a long way to go to eliminate all his fury.
-Tell your friend, tell him, tell him...!-Repeated the mother, with her arm and hand extended towards the papers. Then my eyes crossed one
of the many photos, and I recognized Lidia. The old woman
picked up a notebook, perhaps
a photocopy, and put it in
front of my face. She seemed fascinated by revealing the rugged world of her son. The names
of Juan and Lidia were written there,
ten years before.
Then Juan let go of the old man, and covered his ears, the
mother's voice stunned him.
I could no longer look Juan in the face, I did not dare to do so for fear that he would discover that the woman
he was defending had belonged
to other men before, including mine.
All night
I tried to explain to myself why he wanted
to come back,
to force the facts in such
a way. I thought about Lidia, too. Her photo had revived
in me the most innocent memory I had of her, before we grew up, when I still wrote her name in my class notebooks,
over and over again.
The next morning, Juan knocked on my door. It was very early, and we talked while I
shaved. He had packed his suitcases to leave, and left them next to the bed. With his hands in his pockets, he leaned against the
bathroom door frame.
-We were married by a priest friend, when we were seventeen, in a chapel in Pilar. When my parents found
out, they forced
us to annul the marriage. They threatened to kick her mother out of the neighborhood if she didn't do it.
-And now, how is it... -I asked. "We can't relive that, so I'm leaving." He came closer, put a hand on my left shoulder. "You take care of her," he said in a very low voice.
I wasn't sure if I heard correctly, I was going to ask him to repeat himself when he hugged
me.
Without letting
go, he murmured in my ear that he had known me since I was a child, that a few days after my departure, he learned about the experience on the train from letters to my friends, who recounted my adventure several
times after leaving
school. Juan was there,
listening to them. He was the boy in his first year of high school, who we always
thought was completely deaf.
I pulled
myself away from his arms with force,
but not before
feeling his teeth
squeezing my ear until it bled.
THE TRUCK
Santiago Chávez saw the boy on the next corner, right at the edge of the
sidewalk, where an abandoned mailbox
shadowed him. He could also see the flashes of the
bicycle in the sleepy midday light. That's why he took his foot off the accelerator, but he was already halfway
down the block and the brake didn't respond.
He wasn't
afraid at first.
I had had the brake
fixed just a week before.
However, even though he pressed
it all the way, the truck did not obey him. He shifted gears in vain, put it in
second gear, and tried to turn off the engine.
The handbrake didn't work either. The horn had gone mute.
The boy, six or seven years old, was now in the middle of the street, crossing
on his bicycle with exasperating slowness,
while looking at the other children in the square.
Santiago could
already see himself
in front of him, less than five meters away,
and suddenly the steering wheel gave way to his force, turning to the left. The horn began to sound
and the lights came on.
The boy turned around
scared, and when he lost his balance
he fell on the asphalt. The truck stopped right there, somewhat
oblique over the ditch, with the wheels in the
exact place where the boy had been a few seconds
before. Santiago wiped
the sweat that was running down his red face.
-Watch where you're going, pay attention when you cross...!-He said, getting down and getting closer.
But the boy was crying, with his hair disheveled and his pants torn. He wanted to cry too, and yet he screamed.
-Stop a little I tell you! I almost killed you, do you realize? Where are your parents? -And with his eyes he looked for the Casas' business.
The people in the square began to approach.
Santiago lifted the child in his arms, who
was pointing towards the truck
in amazement. Crates
of fruits and vegetables had been
overturned, scattered all over the street. A smell of apples and crushed grapes invaded the musty air of that corner. The truck, strangely, turned on its lights two or three times, by itself,
as if it were blinking.
Laura appeared
and told him: "Yes, yes, I saw him from the business,
Santiago, he was the one who crossed wrong." -Excuse me, please, he's not hurt, and the bike wasn't broken. I couldn't
even touch it. Please forgive me.
She listened to him but she just wanted
to go home to her son. He accompanied them to
the door carrying the bicycle.
-The brake didn't respond to me, you know, and I fixed it recently. The truck is already old.
It was bad luck or maybe even worse, he thought, that this happened just a month after buying it. It was abandoned
for five years in that vacant lot next to Aníbal's mechanical workshop.
Exposed
to the harsh passage of time, to the blows and abuse of the boys who played
ball on the field. Santiago
didn't know how many times he had seen it there when leaving
school, that Dodge truck relegated to the voluntary oblivion of its owner, or perhaps punished.
Every time he entered the workshop to ask if he would
sell it to him, he refused.
-No, kid, how old are you, fifteen, sixteen? Wait until you buy a new one.
Some afternoons Santiago took off his school uniform,
and in his shirt tunic he began to
help him. Then he took the opportunity to convince him, but Aníbal continued working without
paying attention
to him. From time to time he glanced at the back of the workshop, where the stunted and twisted figure of his nine-year-old son lay.
Hidden in the shadows in his wheelchair, next to the tool table, the boy had his gaze lost, absolutely lost forever,
against the black background of the grave.
He didn't want to leave there. If someone
moved the chair away from that spot before
mealtime, he would start shouting
until everyone on the block heard him. Sometimes
customers left scared,
not knowing what to say. Aníbal then stayed with him, muffling
his screams against his chest, supporting his deformed arms and legs as best as possible, with his clothes sweaty and dirty from his son's uncontrollable vomiting. Afterwards he would go out to the sidewalk almost exhausted, wiping his face with a dirty cloth, and looking
at the parked truck.
Santiago
continued passing by the same place during the following years. The kids played there and from time to time some glass would break, but no one stole anything.
Not a tire, a lantern or an accessory. She, the truck,
knew how to defend herself.
It was even said that when the bricklayers from the building on the other block took a woman, the lights would suddenly turn on, illuminating the entire vacant
lot. For him, those were nonsense, rumors that he was no longer going
to pay attention to: the time had come to finish high school, and he found out that his girlfriend was
pregnant.
-A greengrocer, that's what we're
going to do. "I'm asking
my old man for money
to rent the Costa warehouse," he said determinedly. "But I need Aníbal's truck to bring the
merchandise."
This is how I was going
to remember it almost six months later,
as an uninterrupted, orderly and logical
succession of common
events. At least
until that time when leaving
the market with the truck full of watermelons, he once again encountered the unmistakable
flashes of a shiny bicycle.
It was still far away, more than a hundred meters away. He could assure, however, that a
boy with long, curly hair was circling a tree.
"Six months,
my God, I've seen so many boys since then, why does it have to happen to
me again," he thought out loud, not knowing why he was talking to the truck. "Behave well, and you will never feel the cold again nor will I abandon you." He didn't slow down, trusting in her. With his right hand he caressed the adjacent seat as if a woman were present
there.
Some had already seen him do it, and also talk to himself
while carrying the boxes.
"What's wrong, kid?" They said with a pat on the shoulder.
-Nothing, what's going to happen.-And it seemed that Santiago really didn't realize what he was doing.
Fifty meters away the bicycle left the sidewalk, carrying the curly-haired boy towards the cobbled abyss of the street.
Then Santiago hit the brakes
and nothing happened. Then the handbrake,
which didn't respond either. The gears, the engine, the steering wheel, none of them obeyed.
The horn worked,
but making screams
similar to that of a woman mad with
pain. The boy began to pedal with all the strength of his short legs.
The truck, uncontrollable, straight on its target, was heading towards the child. Santiago was crying.
-Damn machine,
damn you, don't
ruin my life!
I told you I was going to protect you! -And
with his free hand he hit the board. The speedometer needle
moved with the jolt, and it was as
if it responded. This time the bumper
managed to knock
down the bicycle.
The machine had stopped
just in time, regretfully, but the boy's body jumped forward, mercilessly. Santiago
moaned through clenched
teeth, hitting his head against
the steering wheel.
-God, holy God! The bicycle was still crushed under the wheels, and more than ten meters away was the boy, who was limping
and fleeing in fear to his house.
People, leaning out of the windows, watched him as if he were something
more than a twenty-year-old man, standing
next
to an old truck, with the smashed watermelons around him, turning the street a blood red color. It was a man who was now crying and his beard
was wet and sticky. Maybe
they were afraid of him, because
as soon as they saw him take the bicycle
out from under
the vehicle, with that abruptness and the inexplicable dialogue he had with someone
who didn't exist, everyone closed the doors and hid. Then he was left alone at one in the afternoon, in the middle of the dead street during
siesta time. A light breeze
shook the branches
of the trees. He lifted the crushed and twisted bicycle and put it in the trunk. The truck started without any fanfare,
calm, almost satisfied.
A feeling
similar to the one he had the day he entered Aníbal's
workshop, determined to buy
it from him. He had put on a clean shirt and a new tie to seal the deal. The money for the
advance filled his pants pocket.
With the hand that could
never close properly
because of the scar
he had had since he was a child, he touched the bills every moment to make sure he had not lost them.
-Come on, I really need it. The baby is coming in two months and I still don't have the
means to bring the merchandise to the business.
-Get another car.
-But the Dodge is ideal, and I also can't afford anything newer.
Aníbal was leaning with his arms outstretched on an engine,
and a clamp fell from his
hands.
-The whore!
Look what you make me do, you talk to me and talk. I'll show you once and for
all.
He grabbed his arm to take him to where his son was.
-Look at it. See? This is what she did to him.
The crooked child kept looking at the bottom of the pit. Then they went out onto the street, entered the vacant lot, and opened
the door of the abandoned truck.
-Do you see that stain on the seat?
It's his blood.
After the accident
I left the bike on the
ground and loaded it into the truck to go to the hospital, but the damn thing stopped
on a corner and didn't want to start again. He lost so much blood that when we arrived
nothing could be done.
Half an hour, man. For half an hour we stood here with the baby in my arms, bleeding to death. He went to the garage of the house, where the truck was protected from the cold of
the nights of that harsh
winter. On Sundays
I washed it and made it shine
with polishes and sprays. He knew that it was the only way to keep her calm, satisfied, and satisfied. As if he were a servile assistant afraid of his
owner's fury.
When he got in he noticed, for the first time in a long time, the red stain on the seat. It
was dry and dark as always, soaked into the leather, but this time it seemed different, a little brighter. Even before starting the engine, he also noticed the uneasiness that dominated the truck. The windshield wipers worked by themselves, and the needles
on the dashboard moved with nervous intermittence.
-What's happening? Calm down. Do you need something else?
The machine turned on without permission, furious and shining in its renewed
appearance of malicious irony.
-Okay, stop it, I'm not going to sell you, do you believe me? You have to believe me.
From the house, his wife watched him talk to himself, and with a sigh of hopeless regret, she let go of the son she was carrying in her arms.
The boy escaped from his side, and crossing
the threshold of the street
door, got on his bicycle
to follow his father.
"Dad, dad!" He called with a high-pitched voice.
Santiago could
not hear him; The engine
was running and the windows
were closed. When he saw the shadow, that little shadow with flailing
arms, it was too late to stop it.
She, the machine, launched herself at the child with unappealable fury. The body disappeared under the truck, and unknown screams
began to be heard from all sides.
He got out to look under
the vehicle, pulling
his son's hands.
When he picked
it up, the body seemed broken in two, inert, uselessly
dressed in its blue checkered
kindergarten uniform. I didn't know how or what exactly I was doing. He only saw that his wife was hanging on to his arm, screaming. He got into the truck and put the child in the seat next to him, on
the fresh blood stain. He closed the door without
paying attention to his wife's pleas.
He thought of the hospital, of the nearest doctor. But, this time, the engine did not want to start.
THE PREDATORS
Mom was lying in her wheelchair, silent, looking out
the window at the feverish midday traffic. Someone approached the door and the
doorbell rang.
-It's the
postman, mom.- I told her, and I started to read the telegram out loud, but I
stopped when I saw what it was about.
“I invite
you to leave the property within two months if the rent for the last five years
is not paid to me.”
She gave a
small gasp of surprise, and she noticed.
-They're
kicking us out, mom, I knew we had to talk to this guy first.
-They are
going to demolish the house and sell the land, aren't they?
I looked
at her without being surprised, because she usually guessed those things. I
noticed the restlessness in her dark, always nervous eyes. Now she was being
kicked out of the house she had lived in for thirty years, the place that had
fit her like a perfect mold. The darkness of the rooms, the noise of the wood,
the unbearable humidity, and the dirty appearance of the garden, always occupied
by stray dogs, marked us as a strange family in the neighborhood. They called
us “the witch Cortez and her daughter,” the fortune teller who spoke of the
future, of coming tragedies shouted from the four winds even though no one
wanted to hear her.
-Listen to me, Lidia.-Eduardo told me when I
told him all this. We were in the bar, at the end of our first year of dating.
-After living for so long without paying rent, and knowing your old lady, five
years of compensation for endurance is not much. Don't worry, I'll take care of
everything.
When I
returned home, Mom had left the food untouched on the bedroom table. She kept
looking out the window, and she murmured a strange prayer that was increasingly
inaudible. Then, the neighborhood dogs began to bark all together, as if she
were able to connect with the instinctive world.
"I
don't want you to bring that guy anymore," she said suddenly.
-We're
getting married, mom. He's going to save the house.
-I forbid
it.- she answered.-I am not going to leave this house in the hands of my
enemies.
Eduardo
moved in a month later. I know that he paid the debt or at least reached an
agreement with the owner. We took the room that belonged to my parents because
the only double bed was there. It had a balcony facing the street, with a
beautiful view of the neighborhood and the image of the cathedral in the
distance.
Eduardo's
strong and fast steps reigned over the wood that covered the entire
construction. They were new sounds for the bleak daily life we led with Mom.
But she decided not to speak to him, nor did she even deign to look at him for
ten seconds straight.
"It
doesn't matter," he said, but I know that then he remembered the time when
he and his friends followed me to the house, and stayed on the opposite
sidewalk shouting: "Witch!" They challenged my mother for her uncanny
ability to divine or perhaps determine the future. I even once thought that it
was like that, that the world and its tragedies were created around her. That
indescribable capacity of hers to make everyone fear her just by knowing, or
claiming to know, the future of men.
That's why
Eduardo also feared him. Every morning at breakfast, he spoke to me, and I to
my mother, and she rarely to me. But both of them only exchanged sharp and
suspicious glances of suppressed anger.
-You
married the enemy, his parents and families like his hated us. "That time
was like a witch hunt," my mother said once in front of him, at nine in
the morning on a bright sunny day, and Eduardo left, knocking on the door. He
wanted to kill her at that moment. Take advantage of her disability to deal a
blow that no one was going to blame me for.
"I
should be grateful," Eduardo told me at night in our bed, occupying the
exact place where my father had once slept. He put his hands behind his head,
looking out the open window at the summer night. I consoled him then to calm
his anger, that ancestral and almost mythical hatred of his childhood.
The night
we went out to dinner, three months after we got married, we saw how people
shunned and avoided us. I was used to it since I was little, back when Eduardo
was one of them. But now he also felt that rejection. During the two hours we
were there, the waiters served us silently, looking at us askance. His old
friends came in, the same ones with whom he had made fun of us and written
obscenities on the walls of the house. Except he, of all of them, had noticed
me.
“The
strange beauty, the thin and tenuous beauty of Lidia Cortéz,” he wrote in the
school notebook, and I knew it. But that became a mark, a stigma on his
forehead that everyone else in the neighborhood began to see clearly. Because,
from one day to the next, they no longer invited him to besiege the house with
his shouts, nor to put crucifixes on our door.
-Let's go
back.- He asked. His friends hadn't even looked at him.
He was
nervous ioso as we returned. The light in the entrance hall was on. The
silhouette of the house was surrounded by the dark, cloudy sky. Then we
perceive a peculiar and vague aroma. Upon entering, we saw my mother next to a
burning curtain, fanning it, as if she were creating the world's first fire.
Eduardo
ran towards the cloth, and threw it to the ground, stepping on it desperately.
I brought a bucket of water from the kitchen, and went back and forth several
times until the fire was out.
"I'm
going to see the rest!" He said, going up the stairs. His thunderous
footsteps could be heard as he opened and closed the doors.
I looked
angry and helpless at my mother, who was now crying. Her eyes shone, and her
broad white forehead frowned endlessly. That's how I knew, in the midst of the
smoke and ash covering the room, with Eduardo's fury running like crazy through
the rooms, that Mom wanted to go back, to the non-magical time of her life. At
the time when she still did not hear strange voices and the house did not
exist; when she was still a child and no one escaped her. That time when she
did not yet dream or fear that a crowd would come looking for her with her
torches, to hang her from the first tree she found.
"Damn
old shit," Eduardo shouted as he got down, almost stumbling. -You
unfortunate old woman! Do you know that I spent all my savings paying off her
debts? Now I'm trapped.- I approached to calm him down, but he pushed me. That
night we didn't sleep together. “I'm trapped,” I heard him scream in his sleep
from the other room.
The next
morning he was silent and with a haggard face.
-Your
mother got into my dreams last night.- It was the only thing she told me.
Since then
Mom tried to burn the house down many times, sometimes even with us inside it,
and we could no longer leave her alone. We thought about taking her to a
nursing home, but then she became so agitated that we had to call Dr. Ruiz. He
didn't find anything serious, and yet she knew how to intimidate us. She looked
up, rolling her eyes as if mad.
Eduardo
then chose to leave very early, although every morning his mother's screams
followed him to the front door.
"Fire
and charred flesh!" she raved. "They will come to burn me, but I'm
going to do it first!"
I was left
alone little by little, like when when I was ten years old, the boys insulted
me for being the witch's daughter.
Afterwards, Eduardo began to lose weight for no reason. He ate with us
every night, but barely, and he went to bed right away. I noticed how he feared
Mom's penetrating gaze, that she watched him with her eyelids furrowed and
murmuring an unintelligible curse. He began to sleep poorly and tossed and
turned in bed, restless, sweating until the sheets were damp and cold. Every
morning he told me the same nightmare.
-I dreamed
that birds and bats attacked me, and each one had the face of your old
lady...It won't let me sleep, it's going to end up killing me.
One day he
didn't want to get up anymore. He stayed in bed, and said he felt too weak. His
voice was plaintive, the skin on his face was so white that it already seemed
transparent. I knew for sure, without needing any doctor, that he was dying.
I then
asked myself if I also had the same capacity as my mother. That lucid intuition
perhaps taken to the extreme of superstition. Trying hard, I was locked up for
days, exhausting my mind.
-Mom.- I
asked her one day.- Could I have inherited your powers?
She looked
at me like someone discovering a rival.
-You're
not going to beat me. Don't you realize that our enemies are out there ready to
hunt us?
Without
answering him, I grabbed the chair.
-Let's go
to bed, mom. -I took her to the room at eight at night. I didn't make the bed
or turn on the light. I left her in the middle of her small room, the narrowest
in the house. I locked the door. That night was the first night I didn't feed
her, but she didn't protest.
Instead of
eating dinner alone in the kitchen, I brought Eduardo a bowl of soup to the
bedroom, and we ate together. He looked at me without asking me about her, and
a faint and subtle smile returned to her face. It was enough to reward me. To
be sure of what she should do.
During the
following week the old woman screamed almost all day, although her screams
gradually faded. They were hidden by the summer bustle of the street, by the
buses and the voices of the neighborhood kids. The mass bells aborted Mom's
moans. Until we almost didn't hear them. Then we heard banging on the door,
things falling to the floor, and the wheels of the chair spinning from one wall
to another. Slowly, Eduardo was recovering the color in his cheeks.
The
neighborhood dogs then began to approach the garden, claiming the lost vitality
of who they seemed to call their owner. The neighbors came to look for them,
but they left scared by the old woman's screams. The animals then
They all stayed together in
the garden of thick, tall grass. Growling and refusing water and food.
One Saturday, a beautiful Saturday
morning, the screaming stopped. I dressed in my best clothes. A white silk
blouse, with the top two buttons open, and a blue skirt. I went down to the
kitchen and made myself some coffee, listening to the sound of the shower while
Eduardo took a bath.
I spent fifteen minutes there,
accompanied by the sound of the animals outside. I cleaned the cup and looked
out the window. The dogs had come closer and were jumping against the door. I
tried to force my mind, as I saw my mother do, and spoke to them without a
voice, looking into their eyes. Then I let them in.
Twelve dogs crossed the living room like
a wild horde in search of their prey, and ran towards Mom's room. They stayed
waiting at the door, and made way for me without touching me. The white blouse
was left intact, my blue skirt was not covered with a single hair.
When they opened it, they pounced on the
old woman's body, lying on the floor. They destroyed him with their bloody
teeth and fattened mouths. The tearing clothes seemed to make more noise than
the flesh and bones. They dragged her body towards the garden, now so similar
to an African meadow. I crossed my arms, calm, contemplating the hunt under the
sun.
THE BARBERSHOP
That day the street on which my grandfather Antonio's hair salon - my great uncle, actually - was located, changed its usual mood. At that time there were still trees on the
sidewalks and the noise of the cars was loud and rhythmic. I remember arriving
that morning in Dad's car, discovering what things were like at the time I was normally at school. The air
was still cold, and the sun was slowly revealing
itself. I greeted
my father and gave him back
the briefcase I had been playing with in the back seat.
He didn't come down.
"I'll pick you up at two in the afternoon," he told me.
The curtains
on the door of the business had small sheets
of wood held together by thin
threads, and when they moved
they sounded like bells. I found my grandfather in front of the
mirror trying to erase the rust stains
from the glass,
and it was like looking
at a starry sky of brown
suns. Those spots on the glass were getting bigger,
terracotta colored, and seemed to come
from behind the mirror. There
had never been moisture on the wall even though
it bordered a vacant
lot, but from the first
day he installed it, the dark stains
appeared.
-We brought it with the guys from the moving truck from the capital. -He told me. -The best glass, my dear little
Oscar, the most expensive.
The afternoon they entered the store and put it on the wall supports, the mirror broke. An oblique crack from top to bottom opened
without completely breaking, but was palpable
to the touch of the fingers.
Then the stains
followed one after
another, very slowly
over the years. We went to check the wall from the side of the empty land many times,
getting between the grassland
and the thorny bushes. We observe the wall carefully.
However, apart from the moss that covered the plaster, there were no cracks visible in that foot-thick wall.
With the light blue overalls open over his abdomen, he began to prepare the sink in a
corner of the room, and while he was arranging the combs and other things,
some neighbors entered. We all knew that that day was a special
occasion in his life, and that was why I asked
for permission not to go to school.
-Councilman Domínguez called
me this morning,
he says he will come without fail.- Commented an old friend
from the neighborhood. I looked at my grandfather, who was smoothing his hair with one hand as he always did when something was bothering him.
Half an hour later more people arrived. The women were talking, some caressing me and
then looking at the mirror to fix their hair. I felt my cheeks blush with so many hands on them. I entertained myself by touching
the trophies on the mantel.
A huge collection from the times
when grandfather had been president of the neighborhood club. Dad always
told me about
that time, because he played for the soccer team when he was a kid.
I went out to the sidewalk,
and sat on the threshold
of that place that seemed to have stopped in time. A faded sign above the door announced
"El Concejal's Barber Shop." People continued to enter and gather in a narrow
space of the business, since
the other sector
had been reserved for the visit.
But my grandfather didn't stop working. The sound of scissors
was incessant.
Although he was old, he was a robust
man, who did not look his sixty-eight years. With a sharp
face and an aquiline nose,
he had sparse but long and curly
hair at the nape of his neck. With each passing year he became
more strict and cold in his treatment of people, which
is why people began
to fear him and avoid
him. As if instead of softening, approaching the timid reserve and slowness of the old, he was hardening. A year earlier
he had lost the elections
for councilors against his opponent of the last twenty years. My grandfather and Domínguez had been
fighting since they were young,
back when they were fighting
for the presidency of the club.
-It was a war that lasted twenty years... -His friends told him.................. and it's over, old man.
Now Grandpa Antonio was focused on searching for ideas in the midst
of the hair he cut.
Perhaps from the clash
of the scissors, phrases that were understandable to him would emerge, like weapons.
-From here you can see the world.-He murmured in my ear a few weeks
before, while I watched him work, sitting
in the next chair.-Do you know that sometimes I see the souls of my clients? And looking at the mirror I noticed, that afternoon, that a strip had appeared on each side of the crack, obscuring the reflection of the glass. It was maybe two centimeters,
maybe even more,
I don't know.
The rust stains
were no longer
shaped, giving the business
an archaic appearance.
It was the previous
Monday when a rumor began to spread that Domínguez
would come to offer him a lifetime position
on the Neighborhood Council.
"If he wants to come, let him come." He answered simply,
but his head was planning something. I saw his gaze burst
like lightning.
That same Monday I passed by the business,
and I noticed that the crack in the glass was darker, with a brown halo or aura that blended
with the luminosity of the sunset.
My grandfather was already
closing the curtains
and suggested I look for cracks in the wall.
"The mirror is not going to withstand the humidity much longer," he repeated.
For the hundredth time we checked the wall from the vacant side, hitting it until the dried
paint fell off. But we found the same solidity as always, the inviolable impermeability that protected the wall from premature death. However, the crack in the mirror was there, and when we returned
to the premises we saw larvae emerging
from the edges of the mirror.
Black worms walking towards the ceiling. The grandfather stood
on a chair and began
to throw poison at them. They slowly became paralyzed.
"And the larvae?" I asked him the next morning.
-I think they're dead, dear.
The clock
above the door said half past twelve.
Many of the neighbors went to their homes or to Santos' bar for lunch. The metal curtains lowered, beginning the silent interlude
of the nap. The mosaic pattern of the barber shop became clearer as people left.
Then Dominguez appeared at the door. They greeted each other with the silent and mutual agreement to avoid formality. We all kept quiet, but then the neighbors gave a
dismayed exclamation as they were asked to leave.
"Please, ladies, please, there can't be so many people here," my grandfather said, gently pushing the women
and the elderly
towards the sidewalk, and locking the door.
I took advantage of those seconds
of disorder to hide in the bathroom. I leaned against the tiles and watched them with the door ajar. Grandfather looked around looking for me, and
thinking that I had already
left, he invited Domínguez to sit down. Then he started putting the shaving
cream on it.
-Look, Antonio, we already know why all these people were here. They have known us for a long time.
Grandpa continued
covering half of his face with that cream as white as the shirts he
always wore.
-There's nothing
strange about a guy asking
me to shave him. But he did show up offering
me the position I should have had from the beginning.
Then I heard Domínguez saying something different than expected. I heard him talk about threats, and about supporters trying to kill him.
-I messed around, do you understand me? Follow me. I don't
know who to trust anymore.
That's why I came to you. "Antonio is going to protect you," they told me.
My grandfather continued shaving him. Until that moment they had spoken
to each other through the mirror, but since the spots now obscured almost
all of their vision, Domínguez turned around. The knife
slipped by accident, and some blood
flowed out without
him realizing it. He spoke like a desperate
man and asked for protection. Antonio cleaned the knife
in front of the mirror,
a tiny drop of blood splashed on the glass near the crack. Silent, my grandfather listened to that request,
93 but he did not make any gesture other
than moving his lips, as if he were insulting him in a very low voice. Then he spoke.
-Do you remember my boys, whom you sent to be murdered?
Then I remembered what they had told me about the three kids who worked on the neighborhood committee. They were found dead in the vacant lot a few months before the
first elections in which both had competed. They carried posters
that they were going to stick
on the walls during the night. They said that it was a teacher
who found them, at seven in the morning, while she was going to school. The woman had seen some blonde hair in the middle
of the grass, and notified the police.
All three bodies had several bullet holes in the head and chest. They were hiding among the
bushes and the dead cats,
leaning against the wall of the barbershop. We never knew who
had done it, nor could
it be proven that they were victims
of the opposition party. The three
had been shot against the wall and the blood remained impregnated on the wall, even though the rain and sun bleached the
plaster.
Antonio wiped the rest of the cream off her face with a towel, and put some lavender on
it.
Domínguez knew then that he would
never receive help.
He began to get up and saw the
knife in the grandfather's right hand, who with the other held him in the chair until he turned
him around facing the mirror again. Looking
at each other through the opaque glass, one
watched as the other pierced
his throat with the neat cut of a sharp razor. Blood gushed out for
a few seconds, and Dominguez's body turned white.
I didn't even dare to breathe, I was
paralyzed beyond my will.
Grandpa lowered
the metal curtains
immediately afterwards. He didn't know I was still
inside. He was trembling, and calmed down by sitting for a while. He lit a cigarette, staring at the now dark mirror,
covered by the terracotta stains
born from the crack. Some larvae had begun to emerge from the opening,
also emerging from the edges
of the mirror. A quarter
of an hour later there were so many that they covered the entire wall, and they scattered on the floor. Soon they were already climbing
onto Domínguez's body.
When they covered
ever
crevice, they began to devour it.
THE ARCHANGEL
His name was Gabriel Benítez.
He was blonde, with straight hair, tall, burly, and had a scar on his forehead.
No one knew exactly how he had done it, not even my parents who had known him
since he was a child. Years later he set up his own business, and from then on
the myth of him began, that of the butcher shop that Benítez had decided to
name “The Archangel.”
Sometimes we would sneak out of school to
go see him. His almost absolute silence was incomprehensible and fascinating to
us. We knew that the women in the area visited him at least once on the advice
of his friends, and they all ended up recognizing the strange attractiveness of
this thirty-four-year-old man. We never met any girlfriend, and he voluntarily
refused the advances of the neighborhood girls. As if he were not able to speak
to them or say a single word of appreciation. That's why the men who gathered
at the bar murmured that Benítez didn't like women. However, others claimed to
have seen him several times with prostitutes.
It was precisely this trait that
attracted us to him, that peculiar virility that did not need to be
demonstrated in any other way. We would go to the store and lean on the counter
watching him work, distributing the meat slices on the plates, or hanging the
half-carcasses from the hooks. His white cap hid his hair, but not the scar
that seemed to call us at every moment. He then looked at us with rage, with a
fury that I never saw before or after meeting him.
-Max.- He said in a very faint voice, and
suddenly the dog that he had picked up from the street many years before,
appeared on the side of the counter from some hidden part of the premises,
looking at us with a furious expression. He was always by his side, almost
adoring him. That dog, I am now sure, was an extension of Benítez, the
unchanging and sullen mask with which he hid from the world a part of his
person that we never fully knew. The animal resembled a Doberman, with a
mixture of undefined breeds. It was big and strong despite his advanced age,
and completely black.
In
the morning, before eight, he would open the business and let Max out. The dog
stayed in the street for half an hour, sniffing the sidewalk and barking with a
moan of extreme distress. I could hear it every morning on my way to school,
and it even seemed to me sometimes that that howl was a form of communication
with something beyond our senses.
The only times we heard Gabriel was
during his contained drunkenness, on Saturday nights at the bar. Santos didn't
like either of them, especially he was angry with the dog. Max sat under the
table, while Benítez drank his constant glasses of gin. Those times he told us
about his childhood, about the way people influenced his life. But what worried
us most was that his words always sounded like a death sentence.
-My parents called me Gabriel so that I
would be good as an angel, but if they saw me now, they would undoubtedly
regret it. Do you want to know how I did this to myself? -He asked us, pointing
to the scar. -It was an advance punishment for what I was going to do later.
"You're a strange guy," someone
told him from time to time.
-Only Max understands me.
Then the dog howled. None of us ever
dared to silence him. The butcher's voice was the sad and disappointed sound of
that animal. Santos then roughly took the glass out of his hands, and that was
the signal for him to leave. He was the only one to whom Benítez authorized
this treatment, as if he were still a spoiled child who had to be forced to
return home. At three in the morning he walked alone towards the brothel
neighborhood.
One night it occurred to me to follow
him. I was around sixteen years old, and that man was like my necessary link
with women. I walked behind him a few meters until the dog turned around.
"What's wrong with you?" He asked
me, while Max looked at me suspiciously.
-Nothing, I wanted to know if you would
let me come in with you to see the whores.
I saw Benítez laugh for the first time,
and I was ashamed. Then he took my arm and held me for two blocks, until the
women began to appear on the corners, like spiders emerging from their gloomy
rooms, from the thresholds with pale red lights. They walked in circles in
their own footsteps, with torn wallets and purple lips.
We approached one of them, and Benítez
asked him:
-Do you have a girl for my friend?
The three of us entered the old house,
where the heat of the stoves remained virgin and protected from the humid
winter air. On a green corduroy sofa, three or four women of indecipherable age
sat with their legs crossed and barefoot. Her dark, amazingly made-up eyes
dazzled me. I felt the slight push he gave me to encourage me. ara. I don't
know which one I chose, I don't even remember her face because they all looked
the same to me at that moment. We went to a room along a hallway that was too
similar to the one in my house, and I felt remorse. The last thing I looked at
before locking myself in with that woman, with that stranger, was Benítez
entering another room, and Max sitting down to wait in the hallway on a rug.
When I came out, Gabriel was waiting for
me on the couch, alone, in his underwear and smoking.
"The girls sleep at this time,"
he said.
The six in the morning light came in from
the window. The sun had begun to illuminate the streets that were going to take
me to school. The same path that would return me to my childhood and to the
virginity already irremediably lost.
We were there for a while, and I know he
wasn't drunk when he spoke to me, when he told me what perhaps he would never
tell anyone else.
-I had a girlfriend once, you know? She
was the daughter of Santos, the guy from the bar.- Then he got close to my
ear.- I killed her.- He murmured.- I killed my girlfriend accidentally...
-I don't believe you. If she lets you go
every Saturday...
-To get me drunk and make me talk. She
humiliates me, don't you realize? The only thing holding him back from killing
me is Max, he protects me.
That morning I had breakfast trying to
hide the sleepiness and dark circles from my wakefulness. I wondered if my
parents could smell that traitorous aroma I thought I was carrying. I didn't
want to go back to the business, I felt confused and I went to see Santos.
The old man wiped the tables with a damp
cloth and emptied the ashtrays.
-Hello.- he told me, and suddenly he
looked towards the street. I turned around and there were Gabriel and the dog
sitting on the threshold of the butcher shop.
-That dog is very special.-I commented.
-They should have killed him many years
ago... -He murmured without finishing the sentence, and he continued cleaning
the tables, with that sad look that he always had.
My mother later told me that Santos'
daughter had been attacked by Max, and that she had died a few days later. She
told me this just as we were passing the butcher shop, and Gabriel was at the
door.
-Good morning.- She greeted him.
-Hello, Laura.- Then she looked at me and
said:-What were you doing the other night in the whore neighborhood?
I stood there not knowing where to go.
Mom looked at him surprised, and grabbing my arm we walked away. When I turned
around I noticed that she was smiling at me while she was petting the dog.
-Mom, don't believe him.- But there was
no point, I was lectured for a week. I locked myself in my room trying to come
up with a plan, revenge for the son of a bitch Benítez.
Five days later, during the night, I left
the house without making a sound. I sat in my old man's car for two hours
without deciding. At seven thirty in the morning my eyelids were closing, and I
decided that if that wasn't the time, I would never do it. At the end of the
day, Benítez was asking for it, his own act of betrayal seemed like a plea for
someone to end what he was not capable of.
When I reached the corner of the
business, I waited until the bus that took me to school every morning passed by
without me this time. Sitting nervously behind the wheel, I saw Benítez get out
in his white T-shirt and bloody apron. He lifted the metal curtain as Max ran
toward the sidewalk. Then I started the engine and accelerated, listening to
the squeal of the tires on the asphalt.
I think the dog lowered the curb just a
second before I passed. I felt the knock on the wheels, the dizzying and
irreparable step on the animal's back. There were two consecutive shocks. Then
I lost control of the car and crashed into a trash can at the next corner. But
only after gathering strength did I dare to turn around.
When the cathedral bells rang eight
o'clock under the luminosity of the August sun, the neighbors began to
approach. Benítez was now kneeling on the pavement next to his dog.
Raising her head, he kissed her cold,
dirt-and-blood-stained muzzle, and I realized that he was crying. His face was
wrinkled, tearing like a boy full of terror. He piously carried Max's corpse in
his arms. He went to the sidewalk walking among the people, haughty and sad.
His gaze had been transfigured, his entire body suddenly acquired soft
contours, innocent movements. I swear that for a moment I saw a warrior angel
in his place, the same man as always but with wings and a sword in his right
hand, in a procession of homage to the dead animal. It was just a moment, a
fleeting and strange image. Then Gabriel closed the door of the premises.
Since we didn't see him again for several
days, we went in to look for him. Neither he nor his things were there anymore.
We only found Max's body on the counter, stiff and nauseating.
Ilustration: La gare Saint-Lazare (Claude Monet)